i can not understand my problems with undefining a spiritual sense of things
im certain my alcoholism may lay in childhood neglect prehaps my parents were too busy and i couldnt talk till i was 5 years old probably a selective mutism
my probelm is that i have a emotional blockage something inside me needs to come out
its sacry sometimes i wonder what this thing is ..... but its only me free from self conciousness and my own despair now im in group anaylisis i m hoping this can help
you see im worth so much more than abusing alcohol/drugs
rd laing once siad that mental illness is a contribution of enviormental factors and when the small child cant speak prehaps that is me
spiritually i feel no affinity with judeo christianity i had it drummed into me since childhood i dont even give myself my a label except i belive in a force that predates it and have done spells and they work
you see alcohol is destructive it desteroys everything
also the soul im not talking about wicca or some psuedo new age stuff
just the dark instinctive forces that are in all of us
dont worry about another life its life that matters
you were born you never knew you existed before and you wont know afterwards either
i dont want to give a name to something i belive in but he also is a rebel like me
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