well it all started around 9 years ago . give or take . and at that time things for me were going i would say really damn good . i had my own company building houses in nc .and i was making really good money. well i got greeding and wanted more . i had everything i wanted . so i started thinking of other ways i could use my money and make it work for me . and thats when i started dealing drugs . i never dealed anything to to kids . and never force it on anyone that didnt want it .well it went on for about 6 months dealing pot at frist then coke . and i never really got into pot that much. it would just put me to sleep . but the coke in the other hand i loved it after work every day for about two months . then it wasnt enought i wanted something stronger so i started cooking it and smoking it . well that last for about a month and everything came to halt within that last month my work went to hell .all my guys i had working for me couldnt handle me being too pushy and i lost my company . see i work for big company as a subcontrackor and i got fired .well after that happen i try to do everything to get it all back .but it didnt work so i went to work for another company . but mean while my anger was building up and i was still doing drugs and drinking . well one day after work i came home the place was a mess and i was drinking that day and i just lost it totally . well me and my ex got into big time yelling match . my kids were crying . and i grab my yougest and yell at him . and that when she really lost it she grab the kids and left. and 20 minute later the cops were at my door. me with a beer in one hand and asking what the fuck do you want . well you what happen next i went to jail for three days and while i was in jail they were trying to find my ex . the cops were asking me where was my ex was. when i was in jail . well when i got out she and the kids were no where to be found and my brother too . come to find out he took my ex and the kids and brought them down to florida . well after that i really lost it bad time i started not giving a damn went on a drunken for about two weeks did my drugs with a beer in one hand and smoking coke in the other . working like a redneck . cutting trees down for more beer and drugs and and well one day we were having a party at one of my buddy house and he had this girl over there with him and she was doing the drugs and all that . well a fight came out of nowhere she and him had it out . well 10 minutes go by and i start to wonder what happen . it had goten real quite well he came back and she is gone .he send her on her way and we are in the middle of no where and we are out in front of his house and we all start seeing cops roll by the house . and i say we need to find out what had happen and i ask my buddy where is that girl he said she walk home . and i told him to get on the truck lets find out what happen and we drive down the road to find out that she had been hit by a car. see there were no lights on that road and that car that hit her couldnt see her and she was dead all because drugs and alcohol and from that day i did everything i could to better my self and get off the drugs . i sold everything in the house made enough money .to get down to florida and try to get my family back .
well it didnt happen .and when i got here. i found a job within two day. i live in motels week by week and then one day or i should say one night my truck got stolen with all my tools in it and and the cops woke my up at 5:30 that morning telling me they found the truck and took me to it and had the guy there that stole it and i just got in the truck and drove away . well after two weeks of living in motels i decide to just work and sleep in my truck and that went pretty damn good for a week . then i called my mother inlaw to see how my ex and the kids were doing and she ask me how was i doing and then ask me to come live with her and my ex-wife uncle .well the next day before i went to live with them . i went to work all good . but something had to go wrong , i broke my wrist at work in the hospital for 5 hours screaming in pain . and having to drive to my new home and i get to the exit that i had to get off on. that song came on " only gods knows why" sitting there at the stop light crying not worry about the other cars behind me and then i look up and started laughing . and i have been drug free for now 8 1/2 years and i did it on my own .. there is more to the story ..this is part 1 of 2
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part 2 is on the second page
well it didnt happen .and when i got here. i found a job within two day. i live in motels week by week and then one day or i should say one night my truck got stolen with all my tools in it and and the cops woke my up at 5:30 that morning telling me they found the truck and took me to it and had the guy there that stole it and i just got in the truck and drove away . well after two weeks of living in motels i decide to just work and sleep in my truck and that went pretty damn good for a week . then i called my mother inlaw to see how my ex and the kids were doing and she ask me how was i doing and then ask me to come live with her and my ex-wife uncle .well the next day before i went to live with them . i went to work all good . but something had to go wrong , i broke my wrist at work in the hospital for 5 hours screaming in pain . and having to drive to my new home and i get to the exit that i had to get off on. that song came on " only gods knows why" sitting there at the stop light crying not worry about the other cars behind me and then i look up and started laughing . and i have been drug free for now 8 1/2 years and i did it on my own .. there is more to the story ..this is part 1 of 2
thanks for letting me share
part 2 is on the second page
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