So I have to vent! Aside from all the other crap in my life, I had left my previous job in March, being very optomistic that I had finished school and would quickily find another job. Well it's mid May and almost nothing. It is very hard to find anything in my field (don't know why) and I had three interviews and today found out I was just turned down for the last 2. (so all three denied) I have NEVER interviewed for a job and not been hired. I do not get it. Maybe I am just bad at this kind of interview.
I also had to post pone going to Lenair. Since I posted about the letter I wrote my Dh That things were my fault and I was going for treatment, he said he would e-mail me but has been slammed at work. So I have heard nothing. I would need help with the kids and possibly money if I do not get a job soon, so I could not hold the appt any longer.
I guess that is part of my problem with our relationship. It is good that he is focussed (sp) on work but on the other hand he has no time/energy for family or the wife that has been screaming for attention/help for years now! He has so much trouble with me my drinking etc., but he can't take a few minutes to talk or write a note unless he is goin to confront me about something. He used to always say he hated confrontaion, yet he always calls me out on crap but take a few minutes to actually work on the problems once they are brought up? Forget it. I am not him so I can not relate to how is is so single minded, when something big is happening in my life or I am busy...the rest of my life still exists and I have to deal with it. Or not I guess thus the drinking!
Anyway all done I guess. i am just pissy
But good news, i may have postponed Lenair (iknow big no no ) but I did orderTopa from river pharm and will start the program fresh! If nothing else, the Topa kept me in lineand will until I can go.
Thanks for listening (reading)
TM
I also had to post pone going to Lenair. Since I posted about the letter I wrote my Dh That things were my fault and I was going for treatment, he said he would e-mail me but has been slammed at work. So I have heard nothing. I would need help with the kids and possibly money if I do not get a job soon, so I could not hold the appt any longer.
I guess that is part of my problem with our relationship. It is good that he is focussed (sp) on work but on the other hand he has no time/energy for family or the wife that has been screaming for attention/help for years now! He has so much trouble with me my drinking etc., but he can't take a few minutes to talk or write a note unless he is goin to confront me about something. He used to always say he hated confrontaion, yet he always calls me out on crap but take a few minutes to actually work on the problems once they are brought up? Forget it. I am not him so I can not relate to how is is so single minded, when something big is happening in my life or I am busy...the rest of my life still exists and I have to deal with it. Or not I guess thus the drinking!
Anyway all done I guess. i am just pissy
But good news, i may have postponed Lenair (iknow big no no ) but I did orderTopa from river pharm and will start the program fresh! If nothing else, the Topa kept me in lineand will until I can go.
Thanks for listening (reading)
TM
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