maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

[Cinders]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

I would be ecstatic if I totally lost the desire for alcohol. In my home group, people state that the obsession with alcohol has been lifted for them. I would love to be able to say that in all truth.

I asked one why they kept coming back to AA if they were not having to wrestle with the desire anymore and she told me because as a member of AA, it is part of the program that those who have overcome to bring the story to those who need help.

I truly hope that if I ever get to that wonderous place, I am that generous with my time and spirit!!

I am praying that Lenair works for you both, Britzak and Greenie!! If it does, I am going. Period.

Love,
Cindi

[brittzak]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

Cindi, I LOVE YOU!!! we'll be the guinea pigs....ha ha

[Niblet]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

I really agree with you all... To just not think about alcohol you know? Usually for me it is after a days work and it's a Friday... It just seems to be an accepted thing, have a few because it's Friday... To not have a single twinge of a thought would be sheer bliss !

[july232007]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

brittzak,

Great question. Counting can be counter productive or worse if it builds up presure for you. If I experienced the sound of a ticking clock as a reminder of my own mortality, it would drive me crazy. But if it just tells me the time, no problem and it is actually useful. So, it depends on how you experience it, I believe.

I agree w/ mags that after awhile it is less of an issue. To me it is more like a background sound in life now. But I still count because I post here and I like the accumulated nature of it. Sure, each day is truly Day 1 AF, but I like seeing the days grow as I have accepted a life long commitment to be AF. A difficult, but rewarding commitment.

July

Day 306 AF

[KateH1]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

I agree that the urges and the cravings do lesson with time. I do not allow myself to dwell or obsess over alcohol. But, with nearly 5 months of sobriety, there are times, when I begin to think about a drink....(yeah right "A" drink!!) I know better. What I have learned to do is to get busy doing something different, anything, to get my mind of the idea of drinking. Another point, I do not dwell on "Not Drinking". I just think of myself as a non-drinker and live accordingly.

[nowandzen11]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

It is hard

for me not to think about drinking. I either feel happy and want to have a drink or feel stressed and want to have a drink. It doesn't matter. I am sick to death of it.

What makes me really sick is that a lot of times I don't want to drink and I almost force myself to. What the hell does that mean? It is ridiculous.

I am new and don't feel that I am qualified to give advice, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this feeling.

[Hannah]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

Britzzak - I also am not counting each day. I just don't want to think about it that much. The last time I had a truly successful AF run, it was ten years. And if not for the fact that we quit on the labour day weekend, we wouldn't have remembered the anniversaries, and perhaps not even know how many years.....But - being still pretty new this time around, I checked just the other day to see how many days I have accumulated, and I know I will from time to time. Each to their own - whatever works.

This time around, with only about 27 days under my belt, I am already thinking much like a non-drinker, have found it relatively easy to fall back into that healthier pattern, maybe it's because this time around I know for a fact that I will never attempt to moderate again, so any drink I ever am foolish enought to take will be a disasterous one. I have proven this to myself again and again, I don't need to relearn that lesson - this time, I get it. So there is no self torture, no bargaining, no silly rules/guidelilnes. And somehow, that has made me relax about the whole thing,

Another thing, and please! I love this forum! Don't take this out of context! The very fact that we check in here more or less daily confirms that we are thinking about alcohol. But - it's the way we are thinking about it that matters. By checking in here, we are strengthening our resolve, and finding strength and support for ourselves, and each other......so no, we won't ever quit thinking about alcohol. But hopefully the way we think about it is changing.

[dmtodd]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

Me too...

I can relate. At least you made it to 22, 23, 24 days. I made it a whole 6 days and caved in. Every morning I wake up feeling strong and by 5PM I'm a bowl of jello.

[bootcampbarbie]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

ah honey. well you guys be the guinnea pigs. laughing hard. i will say this having had 5 months now since lenair it is so very very different. i am simply not thinking at all about alcohol at all. it holds no more interest then crackers as best would say. and i don't think about crackers either. lmao. so this will be interesting you won't find yourself counting days. it will be fun to celebrate say a month here and there as you wake up and go oh my god a month went by. cuz that is remarkable that you didn't think about it. i noticed this last week that i thought wow, you know i don't drink and these other folks do and they do look like they are having fun. but i remember wow i did drink and i didn't have fun. but it was a conversation in my head and it lasted oh a minute and it didn't mean anything. stress or no stress i didn't think to grab a drink. when i was sober 9 years in aa i remember thanking everyday for sobriety and i was always having to be vigilant in case.. now, well, i just simply am a normie that doesn't want to and isn't consumed in the morning regretting the nite before swearing i'll do better today and then by 3 o clock wanting it desperately and by 6 going to buy that bottle and by 9 another and then doing that pattern over and over again every other day. no i wake up and i have tea and i think about my day. so, honey you wait and see. and that is why in november i'm bringing rhonda to los angeles to see if anyone has any kind of anything they want to work on. she works with everything. after i quit the alcohol the next addiction i woke up into everyday was how am i going to get out of debt and i was in panic everyday about it. every single day i would do kind of the same pattern i did around alcohol. out of debt, pay off the house, save money, or think about work work work or how was i going to make more money or something in that jandra. it was just a viscious circle. now since coming back this last week, all i wanted was to have some fricking peace. and now i wake up into wow, what do i want to do with my life besides working. so i bought some tapes on italian and farsi. and i've never had hobbies so now i'm thinking about an art class, and fun stuff. not just working 6 or 7 days a week. and i wanted to come back to having me just be me without having to do anything for anyone but just be me and have that be enough. and what i've noticed is that i'm seeming to not take any crap off of anyone, i'm not giving myself all away, i'm loving people but not letting them walk all over me and i'm wanting more alone time. and i'm good without having to stuff anything inside of me or do anything to earn it. so, kind of rambled on that when is it enuf. but i think that's what happens when you are no longer thinking about crackers or alcohol. laughing . love you lisa

[Theme2be]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

What a struggle this is.
I dont post much. I am sorry I dont contribute much.
I listen, I care and I m scared because this is a monster of a battle that I feel we do not deserve.

I want my art back and music back and if not I will feel that I was selfish.


K

[bootcampbarbie]

maybe just me, but do you just get sick of it????

theme are you doing okay? i'm a bit concerned. just letting you know that i'm thinking about you.