Dear Caseaday,
Your life has changed dramatically over the past 30 days of being AF. AL has taken a different role in your life and you are now viewing things in a more open and more positive manner. New doors have been opening and opportunities that seemed impossible to imagine have now become within reach. AL will always be part of your life in some way, shape or form. Will you ever drink again has yet to be determined. Some days you want to party, some days you want to moderate, and some days none of it seems worth the risk of relapse. So, for now it is just one day at a time. However, this post is meant to remind you where you came from and where you are to day ? a flash of the past and a snapshot of the present. It is for you to learn from, others to appreciate, and new comers to think about.
30 days ago?4 squad cars and 8 police officers were at your home because you staggered down the street drunk; today you are at your new office developing a new business.
30 days ago?your 8 year old daughter said you smelled like poop all of the time (it was from the toxins in your body) and your bed and pillow would be soaked with sweat each morning; today your girlfriend commented on how soft your skin is.
30 days ago?you would sleep for 12 hours a day and drink for 12 hours a day; now you wake up at 6:30 am and are excited for all of the things you will accomplish.
30 days ago?paranoid thoughts would often raid your mind for hours on end and keep you from going out of the house; now you can?t stand staying at home.
30 days ago?you were lying in bed shaking with the DT?s unable to eat for two days; today you worked out for 45 minutes and then played with the dogs.
30 days ago?you drank 18 shots of vodka to get enough courage to go to a 4:30 pm business meeting that was a disaster; now you once again enjoy being the leader of the conversation.
30 days ago?sweat would run down your face and back when you got nervous (which was all the time); now you only sweat when you work out and it feels great!
30 days ago?you were worried about how bad your breath smelled all the time and chewed gum and Altoids constantly; today you can?t remember the last piece of gum.
30 days ago?drinking and driving were an acceptable downside of being a drunk; today you are thanking God that you didn?t kill some one.
30 days ago?your GF was only staying with you because she couldn?t afford to move out; now she can?t wait for you to get home!
30 days ago?you would gaze depressed at unfinished projects and a dirty home with no energy to make it better; today everything is getting done.
30 days ago?you spent nearly $10,000 per year on alcohol related activities; over the past thirty days that number has been reduced down to $0.
30 days ago?you were only thinking of yourself - trapped in your mind not wanting to speak to anyone; today you talk to random strangers out on the street.
30 days ago?you thought that you were alone?then you made some friends on MWO and everything changed.
Caseaday, as one of your mentors once said ?damn the uncertainties, full steam ahead.?
Your life has changed dramatically over the past 30 days of being AF. AL has taken a different role in your life and you are now viewing things in a more open and more positive manner. New doors have been opening and opportunities that seemed impossible to imagine have now become within reach. AL will always be part of your life in some way, shape or form. Will you ever drink again has yet to be determined. Some days you want to party, some days you want to moderate, and some days none of it seems worth the risk of relapse. So, for now it is just one day at a time. However, this post is meant to remind you where you came from and where you are to day ? a flash of the past and a snapshot of the present. It is for you to learn from, others to appreciate, and new comers to think about.
30 days ago?4 squad cars and 8 police officers were at your home because you staggered down the street drunk; today you are at your new office developing a new business.
30 days ago?your 8 year old daughter said you smelled like poop all of the time (it was from the toxins in your body) and your bed and pillow would be soaked with sweat each morning; today your girlfriend commented on how soft your skin is.
30 days ago?you would sleep for 12 hours a day and drink for 12 hours a day; now you wake up at 6:30 am and are excited for all of the things you will accomplish.
30 days ago?paranoid thoughts would often raid your mind for hours on end and keep you from going out of the house; now you can?t stand staying at home.
30 days ago?you were lying in bed shaking with the DT?s unable to eat for two days; today you worked out for 45 minutes and then played with the dogs.
30 days ago?you drank 18 shots of vodka to get enough courage to go to a 4:30 pm business meeting that was a disaster; now you once again enjoy being the leader of the conversation.
30 days ago?sweat would run down your face and back when you got nervous (which was all the time); now you only sweat when you work out and it feels great!
30 days ago?you were worried about how bad your breath smelled all the time and chewed gum and Altoids constantly; today you can?t remember the last piece of gum.
30 days ago?drinking and driving were an acceptable downside of being a drunk; today you are thanking God that you didn?t kill some one.
30 days ago?your GF was only staying with you because she couldn?t afford to move out; now she can?t wait for you to get home!
30 days ago?you would gaze depressed at unfinished projects and a dirty home with no energy to make it better; today everything is getting done.
30 days ago?you spent nearly $10,000 per year on alcohol related activities; over the past thirty days that number has been reduced down to $0.
30 days ago?you were only thinking of yourself - trapped in your mind not wanting to speak to anyone; today you talk to random strangers out on the street.
30 days ago?you thought that you were alone?then you made some friends on MWO and everything changed.
Caseaday, as one of your mentors once said ?damn the uncertainties, full steam ahead.?
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