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[greeneyes]

Called MD office. Asked for very mild anxiety med and only a little bit. Shit. I feel so weak in spirit to have to do that. It's so awful when you look down upon yourself. And you know how I am about MD. Grrrr Oh well. Sorry daddy, but I'm going to blame you.

[Cinders]

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Greenie,

Blame whomever you must.

Just come out of the abyss.

You are so awesome and I am so proud of you. :l:l

Love,
Cindi

[MyChoice]

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Hey, you don't sound like you always do. This makes me sad that you sad. As Cindi said blame whoever, but please give us back our "greeneyes"

Love.
MyChoice

[brittzak]

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Greenie,
Don't be disappointed, the closer I get the more nervous I am as well. Your date is VERY near, so it isn't like you will need this med for long. Don't beat yourself up......hang in there, we're ALMOST FREE!!!!!! (about makes me cry today..I must have PMS) HA

[louise]

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Greeneyes, I don't know you well enough to know if you are blaming daddy for the anxiety or for feeling ashamed for asking the dr. for some meds. There is no shame in taking meds for anxiety. Anxiety can be so distracting that it is hard to get anything done but pace. I developed anxiety after a severe depression and horrible work experience. For about 1 1/2 years I had a fast acting med (clonazepam) that I took as needed. I started out needing it several times a day and later maybe once a week. There is no shame in this!

[beatle]

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Hey Greenie, see the meds forum for alternatives to meds for anxiety and depression. There is a recent thread in which I wrote out a whole list of them, with comments.

But if you feel you need to get a "real drug" for anxiety, I recommend lorazepam (Ativan). It is highly addictive, so you don't want to take it daily, but for occasional use, it can be just dandy.

If you let it dissolve under your tongue it kicks in after about 1/2-1 hour. Its half-life is short, so it is out of your system fairly quickly (big advantage). However, you don't want to mix it with alcohol. It will put you right to sleep without you knowing what hit you.

I've suffered from anxiety for years. I know how tough it is. You should never feel ashamed for seeking ways to alleviate it. If you have a bad headache, you take a pain reliever. If you have anxiety, why not an anxiety reliever?

Hope you feel better soon.

[greeneyes]

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Hubby said "oh it was a 10mg, sorry" He said it was a five. No wonder it kicked my liitle arse. Grrr.

[CS04]

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Greeneyes,
I just started ADs a couple of days ago -- I too hate meds but I need to get my sanity and myself back. My husband would like "me" back as well. Anxiety can be debilitating, so do what you need to do. Even if you just have the script filled, it doesn't mean you have to take it all the time. It is a safety net when you need it. Take care of yourself. CS

[beatle]

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Sorry, CS, I just have to stick my nose in here again... You most likely know this, but just to be sure: You cannot take ADs on an as-needed basis. You have to take them consistently (and without alcohol) for them to work. (You can't stop them suddenly either). However, Anxiety meds (like the benzos, which I and Louise mentioned) can be taken on an as-needed basis. This is probably what you meant, but I just wanted to make certain it was clear.

[Larisa]

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Hi, greeneyes,

Reading your posts has meant a lot to me. You sound like a very strong person.

As for meds, why should anxiety meds be more shameful than any other kind? They alter physical stuff in the body, just like the others.

My family has a tendency toward chronic depression. I wasn't willing to deal with that. I've been on Celexa and Wellbutrin for years. Life is good - c'mon join the AD party! Sounds like a temporary gig for you anyway.

[Ripple]

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wot-ever works...do it for now. at rehab no narc's. :H the calm before the storm.....