anxious awakenings last night but in the past if that happened I would pour a
stiff one to fall back asleep I am not saying I am strong only that there was no
AL in the house. I do plan on keeping it that way. So here I am on day 2
feeling good, (no-hangover) but still not really motivated. I have become
almost a recluse in the last year since unable to drive my big outings were
when hubby would take me to grocery store or Dr. appt. I would just
stay in my PJ and drink, sometimes I would not shower just because
I was not going anywhere, nothing fit anymore so what was the use?
Then I would get even more down and pour another drink. I was
full of negative talk.I have lost interest in reading, could barely concentrate
on TV refused any invites anywhere because I was ashamed for people
to see what I had become. The other thing is none of my family or friends
are aware of any of this. Close friends have moved away, and all our
family lives out of state. Today I am going to get dressed, make-up, hair
etc and we are going to go to dinner and movie tonight. Big step for me.
Thanks for listening Biscuit
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