Newbies Unite, June 08'

[Tina Desparate]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Good luck Whitemarshmom! Yes it is hard. I don't have the shakes but my craving is strong on the weekends. I am okay during the week most of the time because I am too tired to drink. My commute is 1 1/2 hour each way to work and then I work extensively all day. I am waiting on my meds to come in. I am nervous about them.

Welcome other newbies to the sight. This is a great place. I almost didn't post Saturday to tell on myself but I did anyway because I felt comfortable. I am still going to work on it .

[Living in Hope]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

I didn't do so well this weekend. I was so proud of myself friday night, didn't drink at all. But Saturday it was like I just pressed a self distruct button. We have a bar and I work there at the weekends. That can be stressful and drink is everywhere I look. Stayed drinking wine all day Sunday...I feel so dissapointed with myself. Anyhow I'm back to day one...again.

[jubilee]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hang in there living...today is day one again for a lot of us. Why is it that just thinking you're going to quit sometimes makes you drink more? I find I drink less if I don't think about it as much, and then when it starts creeping back up and I swear it's day one again, I end up drinking more. I wish I understood the psychology behind that.

[Time2fly]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Day 5

Hi All. Renewal, how as your weekend? Sounded like you had a bit of a struggle on your hands there for a while? How did you overcome it? What I do (when I have my internal battle) is read over the thread and your words are always the ones that make the most sense and of course the advice that you want to hear. But I guess, you don't always want to hear your OWN advice do you? You also need that support and a few bear hugs hey? So I would be very keen to hear how the rest of your weekend went. You sounded quite upbeat as usual when you came back online on Sunday. I hope it all went ok though. My weekend was fine. Also having the headaches - nothing a couple of paracetemol cant sort out! Day 5 for me and going on for Night 5 tonight (witching hour now). Feeling fine as I think I've got the Topo doses sorted now (I've gone the easy route compared to cold turkey! but I need to get this sorted before I go off on my 2 month break where they'll be a LOT of temptation!). Got to sort the kids now. Hope you all have a good nite. :l

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Time2fly, thank you so much for asking!! And great job with day 5 AF!!!Actually, I'm doing very well. I stayed very busy yesterday, which helped. Between church, running errands, going to the gym, posting to a bunch of people, etc.... I made it so my focus was NOT on drinking. I also found it nice to avoid any drive home after a stressful night at work (I was off)....seems, that's when it's the worst. I'm off today as well and hope to pick up the MWO book if it has come in yet. You're right about advice. I've tried to help many people over the years and am even in the process of writing a book to help teenagers deal with life issues.......however, sometimes when it comes to helping yourself, it's more difficult. That's why I so very much appreciate you (and the others) checking in to see how I'm doing. I need this forum every bit as much as everybody else and am very grateful to be here. Have a terrific day!!
Renewal

[JMT]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Jubilee, I know where you are coming from about "thinking about it too much." I think that after tomrrow which will be day 7, 6 today, I'm going to just stop counting. I've marked on my calendar when I "quit" if I keep counting days, I find that I'm thinking about it way too much. If I just forget I find I don't worry about whether I'm craving or not. If I DO get a craving which I have, I come on here, suck on a sour patch candy or just chug some water like I could chug a beer. The more I think about it the more it consumes me. My hope is to just look back someday and just say I quite drinking for good in June of 08. Will it happen??? I'm trying all I/We can do is try right? Trying is better than not tyring at all, if we slip or fall, get back up and start over, it's a fight and as long as we continue to fight we have a chance! :0)

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Great post JMT.....I think we do give way too much power and control to alcohol....it isn't easy to quit, however when we make it this insurmountable mountain, affecting all we do in life, it makes the proccess much more difficult. Never let it define who you are, to yourself or others (speaking to everybody). You are much more than a drinker....it's time we ALL tap into those other aspects of ourselves that we have hidden behind alcohol for so long....
Welcome Jubilee, very happy to have you here. Nia, fantastic job with day 1.....have a wonderful Monday folks...... Renewal

[JMT]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

(((((renewal))))) you are the best!! You are brining out the best in all of us and in turn I can just tell it's bringing out the best in you also!

[Nia70]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

HI again!

Into the evening of day two, horrible stressful day at work and when I was cycling home I felt depressed that I didnt have a bottle of wine waiting in the fridge.

Felt anxious for about two hours, I knew we had to go out shopping and I was really tempted but I didn't buy wine. I bought an alcohol free wine instead but then I thought I'm being silly as I am acting like I am depriving myself arent I? and the thing has 0.05% alcohol in it.

Still bought it though, and I had one glass but I prefer drinking some freshly pressed apple juice instead.

Hope I can keep this resolve up, Im scared Ill waver.

[whitemarshmom]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Dont let it control you, dont let the " beast" have its way..Think of it as something of its own, and if we dont feed it, it will eventually die or fade away...Just say No.... I am trying to convince you as much as I am trying to convince myself. It is 2:20pm on Monday, and I can already feel myself getting anxious, of course the more I think about it, the more I want it . I leave work at 430, drive an hour home, I know I can drive home without stopping.. that isnt the problem, But i know there is beer there in the garage ( nothing in the house) and also a cabinet in the garage with vodka. If I succeed, this will be day 1 AF for me.

[Living in Hope]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Whitemarsh mom...I'm rooting for you here sending you good vibes to just get that one day over. You all have given me a more positive outlook on the whole drink thing. Life is too short to spend it obsessing about drink and spending days in a haze hungover and miserable. Drink makes me feel worthless and ashamed..I dont want those feelings anymore.

[jubilee]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

It's so good to have you guys to talk to...going through the same things. I'm all paranoid now about cold turkey detoxing....there's so much scary information online about what can happen. I'm starting to imagine I have shakes and I really don't. I just want the next few days to be over!

[Red-Wine]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Jubilee, I don't know how long you have been drinking for, but I had been drinking for the past 30 years, steadily increasing from 1 glass to 2 bottles a night.

When I stopped cold turkey (the Dr. said take a valium morning and night) I'd also read all the scary stuff and imagined myself having seizures etc, with nobody to help as I live alone.

The valium helped with the anxiety, I did shake a little (think I did before anyway !), I had a headache, was very tired and slept a lot, and apart from one or two ikky dreams, that was it ! By day 3, I was fine.

Don't be scared to take the first step - deep breaths, and much success.

Mary x

[jubilee]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Thank you, thank you, thank you Mary! I have been drinking fairly heavily for several years, got up to a bottle a night about 9 months ago, have had 3-4 instances lately of 2 a night. What's weird is I really feel hungover...I think my body has gotten so adapted to it. I already take Klonopin for anxiety, so I'm hoping that will get me through the next few days. I live alone too.....have those same fears. Please know that your kind words really helped someone today

[rachel]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Yikes

Tomorrow I have to fess up to my doctor and I remain anxious about it. Will discuss different medications and treatment options that I have found in MWO. Have any of you found their doctors unsupportive of the program or suppliments suggested? Wish me luck..soon to be AF Yeah:thanks: