Newbies Unite, June 08'

[ASH]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hey again

Hi all - I've been reading and posted one today on another thread. You all are such compassionate people!! I have been doing lousy, up until yesterday when I THINK I turned the corner. Not sure yet. I was very optimistic this morning - very energetic but it's now almost 4:00 p.m. and it'll be time to go home at 5:00 and my "favorite" thing to do for the past several summers has been to sit out on the deck, sip red wine and listen to the birds. For two days now, I have had only two light beers (each evening) - compared to the 1 -2 bottles of wine I was having almost every night. My resolve is fading now and I'm mustering up all my strength not to stop at the store on the way home and buy wine. Yesterday was the first day I forced myself to drive right by but I'm not sure I am up to it today - I will keep reading until it is time to leave and hopefully that will give me the strength! It's funny how I fade during the day! It takes so much energy! Thank goodness it's slow at work right now! I am just so impressed by all of you and your courage and strength! I guess I just needed to get this out and hopefully start the correct thinking process again.... Here it goes!!! Keep it up everyone -you are so inspiring!! ASH:l:l

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Wow...well, Sundaisy, you just made my day!! I truly appreciate your kind words. I AM in fact going through all the same struggles as everybody else....but I also want to do what I can to keep this thread going and help support everybody who visits. I know there are other threads that come along every day and result in some of our people leaving us.....but for those who stay, I want it to be a place where they are heard and appreciated. Well, I have to get ready for work now, but Sundaisy, thanks again for bringing a smile to my heart.
Renewal

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hey ASH...just saw your post after posting mine.....you CAN do it today! You've got to start somewhere, and let yesterday be that starting point. Reinforce yesterday with today! Think of how good you felt this morning! I KNOW you can do it today.....read my post from the top of this page about starting a new life. I believe in you and your ability to make the right choice today.
Renewal

[kendall jackson]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

I am on my 9th day and it is still so hard. I want a glass of wine so bad, if my husband came home with it I don't know what I would do. He is trying to quit as well. He did have a bottle of wine one night when I was at work. I just don't want it in the house. I too have two kids and my kids seem happier. Mommy is definetly happier, in a better mood, not nearly as edgy and anxious. Isn't that reason enough. I keep playing this game in my head that I can't choose wine over my sweet children. I prayed for a sign to quit, the next morning my family called and said my brother tried (again) to commit suicide. He is a horrible alcoholic. That should be a sign. It helps me if I eat something for dinner right around 5:30 or 6, it kind of calms down that intense craving. It also helps to get out of the house around cocktail hour. This is the fight of my life. I hope I can continue. Kendall

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

You CAN continue Kendall....and yes, if ever there were a sign, it was that call about your brother. You know the right thing to do...have a plan and stay busy...walks, posting, reading, a movie, whatever it takes to get through this initial period....all the best to you.
-ASH, let me know how it went...........
-well, I tried my first ever NA wine tonight. I'm not a big wine guy to start with. I've had some NA beer over the course of my 22 AF days and the NA beer was quite good in my opinion.....the wine tonight? Ugggh...tasted like watered down grape juice......oh well, lesson learned....let's all have a great day Wednesday................goodnight,
Renewal

[Seacailin]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Getting Ready to Face the Real World

Day 5 and I can't hide in this house anymore. I am going to the doctor this morning, I am bringing the MWO book with me to see what she thinks about the meds/supps. I am also done with the Ativan and praying that I do not get very anxious. Tomorrow, I face the boss. I know that I am getting written up, but at least I am not fired. My sleep was terrible last night. Today is going to be ridiculously hot here again, so I will go to the doc and come straight home. We are cooling down tomorrow, so I will attempt an AA meeting. I need to tell the doc how anxious I get when I go to AA. I will have my MWO book by my side today, and will post when I get home. Best wishes to all of u today

[Mad Mummy]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hi Seacaillin have you tried Valerian supplement? I've friends who've used it and say it is very good for anxiety etc.

Might be worth a try.

Bx

[Evie.Lou]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

What a GREAT GROUP :groupluv::groupluv:

[LookingToGrow]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

I didn't make my goal last night (:

I was planning to make last night my first AF day since my relapse in May. I blew it at 7 PM. I didn't drink as much, but I did drink. I want to go back to my AF days but not through hospital detox. That was hell. I still have bad dreams about it. Here's a thought I would appreciate some feedback on: I am a 48 year old Grandma that loves to scrapbook for our Grandkids and I am a very visual person - I have to see things, not just articulate them. I am thinking of scrapbooking my feelings so that before I drink, I can look at my bad times and feelings and renew my dreams to achieve my goals. Kind of a journal with pictures, quotes, words, etc. What do y'all think? THANKS a bunch! Wish I had found this site sooner...

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Good morning everyone......lookingtogrow, yeah.....do whatever works for you. If that would help you stay AF, by all means do it.......I recommend staying busy.....if 7 p.m. is your 'danger zone', go on a walk from 7-8 p.m. then take a shower and read a book.....staying busy helps quite a bit...all the best.
Hope everybody has a wonderful day today......
Renewal

[New Day]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Just discovered this site

Hello everyone ---- I just stumbled on this site this morning, after doing a google search for help on quitting. I've just spent the last hour reading and I think this may be a way for me to get the help and encouragement I need to resist opening that wine bottle. I'm going to make this my first AF day (it's only 11:00 am, so the real test will come in about 6 hours) Actually, I'm going out to play bridge tonight, so the test will be when I come home ..... think I'll plan on brushing my teeth as soon as I walk in the door! I liked that tip.
I'll check in now and again.:new:

[Seacailin]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Did I Get Lucky!!!

Just came from the doc. Her Dad was an alcoholic. She was wonderful. She did not know much about Topomax for alcoholism, but she is an advocate of Campral. She thought it was too expensive for me right now. She put me on Celexa, but just until I can get the Campral. Unfortunately, my b/p was still elevated and I was very anxious, so she gave me a little more ativan, just to calm me down so I can go to meetings. I bought some B-complex, some Mag, and Vit. C. I am always on Vit.D anyway, so replenished that as well. She did put me out of work until Monday though to give me time to hit meetings, make connections, etc.... She is also a bit concerned about my pancreas, but no blood work until I get insurance. Sorry for rambling. I am excited and I had to tell Someone.

[LookingToGrow]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

I am happy for you! I can read your happiness in your post I wish I had a doctor like yours. I think I will switch ASAP. Keep up the great efforts!

[SunDaisy]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Sea, I'm so happy that you found a medical professional that understands and is willing to help you!

I'm happy happy happy for you today!

Sun

[mwo2]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

RIGHT ON !!! SO GLAD FOR YOU