Newbies Unite, June 08'

[Seacailin]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Checking in

Day 9 today. Weekend wasn't too tough. I went to a Tatoo Expo with my sister, daughter, and cousin and was a bit tempted, as they were serving alcohol, but I could just picture myself spending the whole time in the little roped off section drinking instead of enjoying the company of my family and seeing the talent of the various artists. I opted to stay out of that area and we had a great time. We walked around for 8 and half hours. Today, I am drained, no energy at all, but also, No Hangover. Just having a lazy day today, reading, watching baseball. I am cleared to return to work tomorrow, but so far the agency has not given me an assignment. At least if they call at the last minute, which they sometimes do, I will be good to go. I really need to get back to work. Yes, I did cave and get a new tatoo. Congrats Renewal You are almost at the big 30. Seems like it went by so fast. Congrats to all in your successes, and for those still struggling, hang in there. 9 days ago I was in pretty bad shape. If I can do it You can.

[mwo2]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

I'm with ya 2.

Today is day 15 AF. Don't have craving for AL, but I am feeling so blue and tired. Some of it I think is just actually "feeling" instead of the up and down of binge, not binge, binge, not binge...summer is hard for me with the kids being gone.
But I was wondering if any of the supps are making me too relaxed?
Should prob. post on the holistic thread too.

Have been reading the threads, they are helping me, thankyou all.

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Great posts Margoms, seacailin and mwo2.....and congrats to all of you on your successes....margoms, great week for you...being 'sick and tired' is a great way to put it. The regret, self loathing, etc, boy that gets old....being in control again is a true liberation for any of us. Seacailin, wow, what a difference a week and a half makes....you've come a long ways baby! Mwo2, you're on the right track...may I suggest you 'fill in' open times with different activities (ie; walking, reading, going to a movie, the gym, etc)....things to occupy your mind and create new experiences for yourself. Your're not confined to 'alcoholic bondage' right now, so go out and see what you've been missing! Well, hope you all had a great weekend. Talk to ya tomorrow...
Renewal

[rachel]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Wow renewal...I can't believe you are almost at the 30 day mark! I remember when I was trying to prepare myself for my own adjustments in life style yours was the first thread I read. How does it feel? What does 30 days mean? Will you start trying moderation? I am asking because I am having these struggles myself. I am at day 14 and I have not tried to get ahead of myself only keeping my eye on the target of 30 days AF but am not starting to ask myself those questions. You must feel very proud...this is not easy but well worth it. I guess the good news to all that are starting out on the 30 day challenge is to know that the time actually does go fairly fast. Congrats renewal we are all very proud of you!! rachel

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Thank you Rachel, I appreciate your kind words....I DO want to answer those questions...and I will in a bit. I have to run a couple errands, but will return soon. Keep up the GREAT work at day 14.....and good strategy of just keeping focus a day at a time. You're doing wonderful!!! I'll be back in a bit.
Renewal

[renewal]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hello there Rachel, I am back....what does 30 days mean to me?? To me, it means possibility. The possibility that perhaps I might in fact have a chance to control my drinking. I didn't join this site with the intent to never drink again. I greatly respect and admire those who can do that. For me, it's more a feeling that I'd like to be able to have a drink on occasion should I desire one. Before this past month, I could NEVER go a day without drinking. Now, on day 28, I have at least proven to myself that it is possible. I bought a bottle of my drink of choice on Saturday and put it in the cupboard....kind of as a way of testing myself this final week as I pursue 30 days.....haven't gone into it at all. I do plan to have a drink after day 30 just to see how I react....if I can control it or not....how I feel, etc.....won't know until I try. So, to answer your question, the 30 days is something I am very proud of. Don't know what the future holds, but at least now there is hope. All the best to you....
Renewal

[Seacailin]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hello fellow newbies

Just checking in-Day 10-was depressed and miserable all day. The agency had no work for me and my financial situation is getting worse by the day. I am also not sleeping well. I guess things are just not going My Way or happening in My Time and I will just have to accept that. Thankfully, I have no desire to drink. I am hoping that tomorrow will bring some work, so I need to be in good shape. Think I will call one of the women I met the other night at a meeting and see if she is going to one tonight so at least I would have someone to meet there. So what was my sick alcoholic mind thinking:"Geez, I could have drank all weekend if I knew there would be no work today". I know if I did I would still be drinking now. Glad I did not. I feel a little better now that I got my depressed ass out of bed. Have to get some groceries that I really cannot afford, but we gotta eat. Hope all are doing well. I'm sure that this will pass. Love to all

[LookingToGrow]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Good afternoon everyone! I know there's been alot of things for folks to deal with lately. Try to keep in mind all the things we ARE blessed with. Going back to the drink in not one of them. It's just a curse. For those of you who did not drink - excellent work! For those still caving - stop, you're making the earth flat...LOL!! Get up and make pop tarts My prayers and best wishes to everyone. Remeber this - two negatives don't make a positive. L)

[mwo2]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Hello Everyone.

Renewal- Got myself up and took a walk - to Lowes Home Improvement. Walked all over to get ideas for my house, became a homeowner in June. Another reason to get rid of AL! Had fun just walking and dreaming of how to use the ideas but use recyled/reused stuff. Love Eames era danish modern. Thanks for the oomph. Decided to take baby steps with myself, I tend to think ok time to clean the house! when now I just say I think I will do the floor today. need to be mellow in all things.

Thankyou everyone for sharing yourselves here, it has been a blessing to me.

[Seacailin]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

What a Night!

Good morning all. I told some of u before I quit AL that I started seeing a man who was a heavy drinker. Well, I haven't seen him since I quit. Day 11 woo hoo!! Last night he was highly intoxicated and he kept calling me, eventually, he started saying that he was coming to my house. I told him that he was NOT coming to my house and that he was too drunk to drive and should just go home. Lo and Behold, he shows up at my door. It is not a short ride from his area to mine. He started ringing my doorbell. I would not let him in. Eventually he passed out in his truck in front of my house. I let him stay there hoping he would sleep it off before he drove. He is gone this morning Thank God. If he pulls that again I will call the cops. I am not going to take his calls anymore, except for the one where I tell him that I Never Want to see him again. Just goes to show how stupid and irrational we act when drunk. Also, the danger to others was immense with him driving in that condition.

[Evie.Lou]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Stick by your word!!!!Never see him AGAIN...You do not need to tell him that,he will figure it out when you don;t answer the phone...Avoid talking to a drunk...things can quickly get out of CONTROL>>>>

[Seacailin]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

You are right Evie. I'm sure he will get the hint eventually. I was ignoring his calls, and then he started having his friends call me. I never would have met him if I wasn't drunk off my ass, getting tossed out of a bar. Yeah, would have been a relationship made in HELL.

[1967]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

hello all. i've not been to this site for a couple of days. but i've not lost my resolve.
today is day 18 AF for me (thankfully!) and I don't want to repeat those first days either.
the cravings have gotten easier and it is nice to not to be preoccupied w/drink all the time!
i do need support though. i don't want my guard to fall and be drawn backwards.

to those starting out: it is worth the effort, really!

[mwo2]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Sea - 11 days! way to go!! Glad "the guy not for you" slept in his truck, good choice not talking to him! Hope he gets the hint quick.

1967- We are practically AF twins, I am on day 17 AF. So far no thoughts of drinking even beyond 30 days. I do not want to start this trip again. At least not the horrible binging, home alone crap. But yet, like you I hope that the shield stays up ! Let us say "en garde" Al, jump on the wagon and ride !

Just keep reading and a posting that's my plan. Along with supps/cds.

[Chief]

Newbies Unite, June 08'

Just wanted to check in and say you guys are doing great!

Keep up the good work......you are helping and supporting eachother....that's what it takes...especially the first 30-60 days.....

Don