Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

[4theboyz]

I knew I had a drinking problem for a long time and it took me almost 4 years to finally get scared enough, get up the courage and get just plain 'tired of being tired' to finally sign up to confront my drinking problem. In a way I wish I started much sooner, but I will never know if I was ready then or mentally able to make that change.

The longer I stay sober, the more I see that I am and was not alone in this struggle. I see more and more people I know who are having AL issues themselves. This is something that was not so apparent to me when I was drinking as I was too fixated on my own need to feed my addiction and AF people were merely a threat to this need.

Anyway I am curious as to how many others are or were out there/here on the fence, just curious or just looking either for themselves or a loved one.

[Guest]

Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

me , stuck on the fence,have been for a few years ,my boozeing has lessoned by half in the last 18 months but I can still overdoo it most weekends and thinking about it, it still occupies too much of my thoughts! Well done you ,I love to hear it can be done ,how long are you af?

[hart]

Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

(((NOT4)))))

I'm on that fence. I and my hubby lasted 34 days AF on Campral, then back to our original high rate of drinking. We are trying to cut down, soon to go AF again. But excuse after excuse comes up. Not proud of myself. I'm glad you are doing so well!!!

[4theboyz]

Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

Limers, since you asked I went for 58 days straight on Feb 18th which got derailed by Surgery which Vicodin apparently was not enough to numb the pain. I am now able to string up AF days with greater ease and have broken my AF streaks with super special occasions and most recently our summer vacation. For me, I am not cut out to moderate as I know it will lead to disaster if I even try. Thankfully my wife is in on my need to be AF and would literally castrate me in my sleep if I broke the "rules of engagement"! My journal in My Story thread will tell you everything about my journey so far.

Going AF was the best thing for me and I only wish I did it sooner my friend!

[brittzak]

Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

I think many of of us have been on the fence so to speak....I myself had to fall off, get run over, go wobbling back to the fence, fall off again...breaking myself, pick up....crawl back....slowly crawl back up the fence....get whacked off quickly with a sledge hammer, pick my broken self up again and just hang on a nail half way up the fence.....seriously!!!! u r not alone!!!!

[Guest]

Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

Welcome to the Board.
There are many on this site all in various stages; all in different points of our lives, but we all have one thing in common. AL is effecting our lives in one way or another.

[livingfree]

Just Curious or Not Ready Yet

This is an interesting thought to ponder. I know that I woke up every day for many years and this was going to be the day. By 5 PM - this was NOT going to be the day.

But the one thing that was the same all of those times, was that I was alone in my desire. I didn't tell anyone I wanted to quit, and no one ever approached me that I should.

The one thing that was different this time, is that I have come out into the open with the fact that I needed to quit drinking. I opened myself up to that FEAR of people knowing. That seemed to make a difference for me.

So was I not ready all those other times? I honestly felt that I was but just couldn't get going. Was I more ready this time? I think I was always ready - but this time I gave myself NO CHOICE. I came out of my dark secret shadows. Just coming to this site for me was the first step in coming out into the open with drinking. Even though I didn't know any of you ... You are real people and it gave me the courage if I could talk openly with total strangers, I could tell those who love me.