Day 5, and thank God I'm hardly even thinking about it!
I guess it's all in just making the decision and doing it.
I'm sure seeing myself out of my own body (yes I was that drunk). I looked f@ckin pathetic! Falling all over the place, running into things, drinking a litter of hydroporoxide and being hospitalized in the psych ward really helped me WANT to clean up.
So I'm gonna tread on and NOT look that EVER again!!!
So to all of you who haven't really decided yet... do yourselves a favor and make that decision. It'll be the best one you ever make in your life. One that will save your life, your friends, your family and your dignity. It's a hard one to make, cause "what the hell am I gonna do without my buzz"? The answer is, have a better life. Feel better about yourself for facing your problems rather than drowning them. I used to wake up with a shot of vodka, or two, just not to shake at work. It's kinda hard to TIG weld when you're shaking. hehehe.
Don't get to where I was before I decided. It's only been 5 day I know. So it may look like I'm talking a little too soon, but I have no desire for it anymore. My dad talks about it more than I think about it. If I can, anyone can! I lost two aunts to alcoholism, it's in my dna to be an alcoholic. Everyone here can do it!!!
So DO it. Don't say I'll try, DO it!
God bless us all and give us the strength we need to beet this illness!
I guess it's all in just making the decision and doing it.
I'm sure seeing myself out of my own body (yes I was that drunk). I looked f@ckin pathetic! Falling all over the place, running into things, drinking a litter of hydroporoxide and being hospitalized in the psych ward really helped me WANT to clean up.
So I'm gonna tread on and NOT look that EVER again!!!
So to all of you who haven't really decided yet... do yourselves a favor and make that decision. It'll be the best one you ever make in your life. One that will save your life, your friends, your family and your dignity. It's a hard one to make, cause "what the hell am I gonna do without my buzz"? The answer is, have a better life. Feel better about yourself for facing your problems rather than drowning them. I used to wake up with a shot of vodka, or two, just not to shake at work. It's kinda hard to TIG weld when you're shaking. hehehe.
Don't get to where I was before I decided. It's only been 5 day I know. So it may look like I'm talking a little too soon, but I have no desire for it anymore. My dad talks about it more than I think about it. If I can, anyone can! I lost two aunts to alcoholism, it's in my dna to be an alcoholic. Everyone here can do it!!!
So DO it. Don't say I'll try, DO it!
God bless us all and give us the strength we need to beet this illness!
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