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    #1

    Having a rough time...

    I'm scared.....I barely could make myself bring this up to ya'll. I just went running AGAIN, (did this morning also), but I couldn't stop thinking about going to get a bottle of wine. I started to do that mind game stuff, and kept thinking I don't have a problem.

    Now, I'm back from running and PISSED OFF! For no good reason. I'm hating my dogs, hating my house, hating the neighbors, and just want to do my thing, which is have dinner and drink wine. Thought about going out to dinner, but I'm sure I'd have wine there too.

    I'm pissed that I can't. I'm pissed that I'm even in this situation, and that I made the commitment. Who was I fooling?
    "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."
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    #2
    Having a rough time...

    Panacea
    Hang in there. It was good you came here and posted. No one is going to fault you for being honest.
    Do you have a friend you can call and go visit? A sober one. Read more posts. Get a book and read, take a bath or do what ever you like to do besides drink.
    You can do this. Trust me i felt like you do right now on many occasions. I know it sounds corny, but if I can do this so can you.
    Hang in there.

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      #3
      Having a rough time...

      i know how you feel but it does get better ..with time ..keep yourself busy read and learn..if you feel the craving drink grape juice, hot tea with honey,soda and anything but al.. treat yourself to some candy , chocolates , cake , ice cream, do your beat change your habits you can do this .
      good luck ..peace love and god bless

      ps but dont hate the dogs.. LOL
      :beach: life does change as long as you are willing to change yourself ..
      best thing about the future it comes one day at a time..

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        #4
        Having a rough time...

        Thanks...I'm hanging. Just ate, hunger was a factor in my "pissed off-ness". I guess I'm not used to eating after 5pm when I'm hungry, usually am having wine, and no urgency to eat.

        I cried when I was running, not to sure why. Maybe a little sad about the whole thing. Trying to see a brighter future, but wondering what that will be. Sad about all the time I've missed while I was drinking. Sad about my Mom, wondering if she see's my struggling since she's died. Or if she knew when she was dying how much it would hurt when she was gone. I miss her so much.. It's been two years, and it just hit like a mac truck, like it was yesterday. I should've spent more time with her, and only wish for one more day, to show her how much she meant to me. I don't think I've really grieved, just buried my feelings with wine, and the last two hours, I've been a wreck.

        I will not drink tonight.
        "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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          #5
          Having a rough time...

          tlrgs...always love my dogs...They were just too damn happy when I came through the door!
          "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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            #6
            Having a rough time...

            I just posted recently that it is weird to feel anything after numbing myself for so long. I'm sure that is part of it for you too. I can only say it will get better when you have the wine out of your system for a longer time. I'm not saying it is not difficult to deal with those feelings, but it helps when you feel more stable. Glad you ate. That helped me many times as well.

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              #7
              Having a rough time...

              I get pissed off as well; it really angers me sometimes why it bothers me so much. If you don't drink tonight you are a very strong individual; and my hat comes off to you.
              I lost my grandmother three years ago. I was not even in the country when she passed away; I was living abroad and very pregnant..it still breaks my heart that I was not there to be with her. She was the most wonderful woman I have ever known, and I know I will never know anyone else even close to her.
              Be pissed off, you've got every right to be.

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                #8
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                Yep, thats it, I was numbing it all out. My Lord, how much crap is gonna come spilling out now!?!?! I'm thinking grief counseling might be good for me. My entire family doesn't show emotions, (only my mother did), and I'm just like her, but we learned how to stuff those feelings away, and numbed it out with the wine. I wanted to go a while back, but never did....pretty much how my life has been the past few years....Good intentions, never follow through.

                Thanks again.
                "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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                  #9
                  Having a rough time...

                  Also, try eating Protein..it amazingly takes away the craving.

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                    #10
                    Having a rough time...

                    I did Gia! Didn't know it helped, but had chicken, just chicken....didn't feel like cooking, so just ate cold chicken....no potatoes...no salad....just chicken....Tastes like chicken! (sorry, a little silly now!) My emotions are all over the place.

                    Sorry about your Grandma. Mine was very close me too. It's always hard, if your here or not, but I can only imagine how it made you feel being away.

                    And I'M NOT DRINKING! The reason cannot be my Mom. It would have to be a good one, like I burned the toast or something....hahahaha!
                    "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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                      #11
                      Having a rough time...

                      I really try to eat as healthy as I can. Lots of fish, steak, turkey and chicken. As many fruits and veggies as I can get, and I bake a lot as well. I also need to have lots to drink in the fridge as well; cold pop, water, juice and ice tea.
                      I eat lots of things cold too. I will slice up cold steak and eat that with breakfast or whatever, or just alone.
                      Thank you, it is always hard..my heart goes out to you.

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                        #12
                        Having a rough time...

                        :l:l:l
                        Goal 1: Today
                        Goal 2: Tomorrow

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                          #13
                          Having a rough time...

                          Hope you are hanging in there! I can so relate...

                          Just remember, the battle is won or lost in your mind. You cannot stop the birds from flying overhead, but you can stop them from making a nest in your hair!

                          Focus on the positive, which is how wonderful you are going to feel in the morning.
                          If you do not live the life you believe, you will believe the life you live.

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                            #14
                            Having a rough time...

                            Panacea
                            you are not alone
                            -Sheep

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                              #15
                              Having a rough time...

                              I'll be thinking of you :l
                              Patience has its limits. Take it too far, and it's cowardice.
                              - George Jackson

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