Why keep trying?

[Seacailin]

Why keep trying?

NEVER GIVE UP!! IT IS NEVER TOO LATE!! CHOOSE LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT LET AL TAKE OUT ANOTHER GIFTED PERSON:l

[gyco]

Why keep trying?

you have strength in yur writin, now you have to find strength in numbers ,were here for ya gyco

[Theme2be]

Why keep trying?

In response.

I appreciate your words so kind.

I see you in the reflection of your generous meaning and outreach.
You embrace your own struggle, its voice, its range when denied.

You embody what I see in the future.

I have no other option than to be open to the possibilites.
Because, that vision, is the clarity in my hopes.

I will align this body I don't enbody, as of yet, to your very words.
Because you are precious to my life.

My life, is much better "Accountable" when I am accountable for I am in the freedom I hear echoed at MWO.

I apologize in your presence when I have posted under the Presence of the beasts influence.
I must share that it is dangerous if I do not.
Posting in those moments are a diversion to not put more in.
I am grateful for your brilliant patience.

[Theme2be]

Why keep trying?

One time as I was approaching Vegas at one of the most beautiful places in the desert I had an experience.
The sky above me was a akin to a firey red mist.
On my left was the full moon as viewed in the day exactly at eye level and on my right in exactly the same place was the sun with such amazing colors. I had to pull over to take it all in.

That is how I feel somewhat.
I am in this , place, right between night and day in an exact moment if that makes sense. It is as if I am right in the center, but, I view myself from the outside looking in.
This alcoholism disorder places you in between worlds. One is an abstact obstrucion that blacks out any light as the true realities exist where your true colors are expressed to such a degree where there is no separation.

You help,so. I feel happiness through what I experience, not because of what I am.
I know there is love, always. I believe everything that annoys us about another can help us to understand ourselves. When I am "under it's spell", I am another.
I am listening and learning. I believe wisdom is the reward for listening over a lifetime.

Some days, if I start the potion early on, 12 hours is a lifetime. I still enter in here.
I struggle for I wonder if I am missing something. I read that "It's the very things we think we know that keeps us from learning what we should know.
I address matters to my intuition.
Am I ignorant of something?
Am I afraid of something?
Am I stuborn on some matter?
I am hopeful, even if it is the last remaining thread to what completes the tapesty.
Sometimes, not knowing something is normally a milestone on the way to knowledge.

I attempt to not live in the past or overly concentrate on the future, but to concentrate more on the present as I have always lived my life.
I am in limbo.
I try to forget, and do my favorite and that is to laugh for it is better than recalling and being sad.
You help.

Sometimes what I want most in life is somebody who points out what I could do and what I am capable of.
You help.

My life, so precious, as is yours must be lived with love and humor.
Love to understand
and humor to endure.

I am in the understanding that I am enduring through your help.

Your help reflects your magnificence.