August- Come One, Come All

[DeeBee]

August- Come One, Come All

Well I made it through Saturday even though my biggest trigger - my old drinking buddy came around for dinner and to watch the rugby... that's the South African way of life, drink and watch rugby

Anyhoo the funny thing is I didn't crave when the others were drinking but the oddest thing was that my best friend has not asked me once why I'm NOT drinking. I mean that is all we used to do when we got together, surely you would think that she would be a bit curious??? I am still dealing with my feelings on that cause on one hand I am phucking hurt that she isin't missing her drinking pal anymore but on the other so relived that I wasn't given the 20 questions as to why - I know she doesn't think SHE or I have a drinking problem.

Keeta and Sun, sending you both big hugs

[tlrgs]

August- Come One, Come All

good monday morning
lets enjoy the day
and here one way [ame=

]YouTube - I feel good[/ame]

[Nurseindistress]

August- Come One, Come All

Well. my day yesterday wasn't so great. I got depressed because my daughter was with her in-laws a lot this weekend, and they are also making plans for a big family vacation next summer. I know I have to deal with these things, but it got me depressed, and I had a few glasses of wine--which did not help. At least I am starting to really see how unhelpful it is.

More2--I definitely think your son's GF needs to see someone. The fact that her left eye is drooping is not a good sign, and it is not normal. What is wrong with her parents? What do they think?

Well. back to working on getting through August and doing better.

[DeeBee]

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Tlrgs, I forgot to turn my sound off at work and had half the office dancing to "I feel good"!

Nice one, just the mood I'm in

[A Work in Progress]

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Hi, fellow Augustans! This is the beginning of my fourth week AF and that feels really good. I'm so glad that so many of you/us are posting frequently, even when times with AL are not going so smoothly. What I keep hearing is that not everyone is totally AF, but everyone seems to be learning a lot about their relationship with AL, how it works, and the effect of AL on their/our lives, and that is WAY important; also, I keep hearing that even those who are drinking some are realizing that they are drinking a lot less, and/or less frequently, and THAT is great, too. For those who have been drinking daily for a long time (I certainly had been, up till 3 weeks ago!), getting some AF days is a big deal.

best wishes to all,

wip

[Carmac]

August- Come One, Come All

Hi, all

Been reading various threads and thought I would pipe up, along with others, am doing well this month with all of August AF (so far!) and planning on going all 30 at least.

All your stories are very helpful in assisting me to meet my goals so thanks!

Erin

[SpiritGirl]

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Keeta and Sunbeam ~ just keep coming back... Every day you get closer to the day that you will be free of this burden... ((hugs))

WIP - great job on 4 weeks! I can't wait to get there.... More2 - you moderated... thats a good thing.. If I have a glass of Chardonnay - I drink the bottle... I think it was great to stop at 2 small glasses...

Hope everyone has a great week.... Tlrgs ~ LOVE the video and little dancing penguins!

Erin ~ thanks for checking in with us - I hope you stick around...

[Alley]

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A better August

Wasn't off to a great start but looks like I might get a few August AF days strung together here. I just want to repeat that I am so happy I found all of you. For the first time in so many years, I have hope. :thanks:

More2--That hike must be an incredible inspiration. Wow! Good night and a better day tomorrow. :l Alley

[A Work in Progress]

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Good goin' Alley!! Thanks, Spirit, I am just finishing 3 weeks AF and starting on Week Four...

tired person, bed time, good night all!

wip

[tlrgs]

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hi there everyone hows it going today .. just wanted to pop in and say hi
keep on keeping on stay strong and think positive .. surf up

[SpiritGirl]

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Just checking in after a hectic week so far. Kids start school on Monday and it's been crazy. I have enjoyed the hangover free days though! It would be hard going through this week with a pounding headache and a gnawing guilty conscience.

Hope everyone else is doing well. Too bad we can't all stay as enthusiastic towards the middle/end of the month as we are in the beginning! I'm sorry if I have tapered off - I will commit to trying to post every day for the rest of August. I need you guys!!

[tlrgs]

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stay strong and think positive and enjoy your day everyone

[Nurseindistress]

August- Come One, Come All

NEED TO VENT

Hello,
This post is totally venting, because I need to do it. I had been doing pretty well in August--not anywhere near perfect, but better for me. And the good thing is I was losing some of the cravings--not struggling to not drink, just mild longing. Anyway, last night I was talking to my (grown) daughter on the phone, who I have a good relationship with. She lives nearby, with 2 kids, 3 and 6. I asked about having them spend the night Sat. and she said they are going to their other grandmothers. All of a sudden I was WEEPING on the phone . Feeling very sorry for myself because the other grandmother lives closer, is retired, lots more money, family, etc. My daughter started talking about how she can't help that (I know it). Anyway, to make a long story short, she said some things that really hurt my feelings and made me feel really bad about myself. I hung up and went right to the liquor store and bought a bottle of Vodka, drank it, and called in to work sick today. I hate myself right now. I feel like she would be better off if I wasn't even around--she has her own family now , and the big family she always wanted with her in-laws. Blah blah blah--just venting, and crying, and feeling extremely sorry for myself. Sorry--thanks for letting me "vent". How does one recover, when one drinks to stop feeling like the world's biggest looser?

[A Work in Progress]

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Well, you already took the first step to recover from it! Coming here and talking about it... another step would be to look around you and see how many others here are recently recovering from the very same thing... feeling lousy after a drinking episode... and that can help put things into perspective. Don't let yourself even use phrases such as "world's biggest... " whatever.... because that just over-dramatizes the situation and impedes your FORWARD progress! Back on the horse, OK? You can do this.

wip

[DeeBee]

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Oh Nurse, I am so sorry you are in the dumps! I also went through a period when I was tearful for no apparent reason and of course I could'nt just BE tearful so I got upset with my family over things that I think I would've handled a lot better if I was stronger.

I hope you know that NOTHING can replace a mothers love, I am sure your daughter needs you and wants you around.

Hope you feel better after venting!!:l