August- Come One, Come All

[mwo2]

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wanna go to chat?

[keeta]

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I hate myself...after 13 days AF I drank...I hate me SO much

[keeta]

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yes

[keeta]

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i wish i were SOBER....it would be SO much easier...my marriage is a lie...my life is a lie....God please HELP ME STOP DRINKING...put me out of my misery please...please

[Noelle]

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(((((Keeta)))))

[Sunbeam]

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Keeta, we are all here for you. I do remember how much I hated myself for drinking to excess. And it makes all the other problems in life worse. Try to focus on the success you have had. Count the number of AF days now, not consecutive days.

Now it is now on to another day. Things usually look better in the am, and I hope that is true for you.

The strategy I am focusing on this month is substituting special but non-alcohol beverages. Something that doesn't just come in those big soda jars that we usually have on hand. I serve it to myself at the time of day I used to have wine, in a wine glass. On the patio, or in my favorite chair with a good book. Continue celebrating that moment. Give myself the reward I know I deserve. It is the time to take care of myself. The alcohol is not needed.

Meanwhile on the homefront, the skunk seems to have left overnight. I moved things out of the corner he/she had occupied, so I can see it better. We will keep the garage closed up as much as possible for the next few days so it does not return.

[Nurseindistress]

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Feeling the Urge

I just got home from 2 days camping with the grandkids. I cried when I had to leave them, feeling so lonely to go home alone. Immediately I started thinking about feeling better by drinking. Fortunately it is not noon here yet, so the liquor stores are not open. I am on day 3 AF now, I hope I can make it. I really want to "drown my sorrows". If I could just have one martini, I would feel mellow and not so lonely. Darn--I hate that feeling. I came home and my "starter pack" from this site was by my front door, so I just took the supps and hope they help. I don't know how long I can hold off today. It was really easy when I was busy with people around me. So, whoever has slipped, don't feel bad--it is struggle that I just hope gets easier.

[A Work in Progress]

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Hey Nurse, you are having a tough time, but you put together a couple of days AF and that's GREAT! Remember that your brain can throw tantrums like a 3-year-old, and/or it can engage in seduction and rationalizing tactics... anything to get the alcohol it wants... remember that there is more to you than that craving brain, and just focus on whatever else will get you past the strongest impulses and cravings. Cravings never killed anyone and they are guaranteed to go away (they will come back, but not always with such apparent strength). You are stronger than your cravings! Get out of the house (or wherever... go for a walk... and then another one! read posts on this forum! go to the library! rent a video! drink some V-8 with lime in it, on the rocks!!!

wip

wip

[SpiritGirl]

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Keeta - I can't help to smile at your persistent sense of humor ("penguin down")... You are a special person.. Do not let this setback feel like a failure.... I came to a "revelation" when I drank after 23 days AF - I thought about all the posts I have read here from long term abstinators. Almost all of them describe about how many times they "slipped" along their journey before becoming a long term non-drinker. ALMOST ALL. They slipped after 12 days, 2 months etc... Each time it was longer and longer between "slips"... It seems a normal part of the journey. So I realized (and I hope you do too) that when I slip and I LEARN from it, I am getting closer and closer to the goal! When children learn to ride a bike, they fall off several times in the beginning. They learn what they did wrong and the falls become less and less and before you know it, they ride the bike all the way around the neighborhood!! But not without some skinned up knees in the beginning.

Like More2life, I was in a sad marriage. Although I am not encouraging divorce (if you can work it out-you should!) but I have no regrets with my own divorce. Although things are not perfect in my life, I am at peace. It is nice to live in a peaceful home, as opposed to the "war zone" I used to be in. Work on the things you can at this point - YOU! Make YOU better and the rest will fall into place.

Work, the V-8 with lime sounds yummy... I didn't realize they made it with lime... I'll have to try it out..

Sunbeam - glad to know that penguins can beat skunks in a stand-off!! Glad it left without leaving a "stink"...

Stay strong, Nurse... I am looking forward to your PM to hear how the weekend went.

[Determinator]

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ditto what AWIP said. we truly are stronger than we allow ourselves to realize.

[lukalee]

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Good morning Penguins!!!!!!!
Penguins NEVER hate themselves!!! There is no reason for that kind of talk!!!!
Sometimes we may be slapped back to reality, but we never leave a woman down.

[CS04]

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Hi all,
I stayed AF last night, despite a very trying day with hubby. We are having major money problems and he is refusing ot talk to me about it, pretty much. Our business operates out of farmers markets, and while we were finally successful at yesterday's (2 hr round trip drive), at today's we did NOTHING. (also 2 hr drive) Hubby is still not receptive or talking to me about financial options. I am trying but it feels like it's never enough.

Keeta, I slipped BIG time at 14 days, so there must be something about that halfway-to-30 point. I didn't want to try again last month, but I am trying again now. I know what triggered both of my slips in June, so I am more prepared now.

Nurse, I wanted to drown my sorrows on Friday cause of all this money shit -- and did. Felt awful yesterday, so didn't.

More2 and Sunbeam, glad you're doing well. Glad the skunks have exited the building!

There are a lot of supporters on this thread, so let's try to get thru Sunday, guys!

[tlrgs]

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yeah everyone doing a great job keep on going

[SpiritGirl]

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Lukalee and Tlrgs.... LOL!! I love the videos!! Nice to have a good laugh...

[sami]

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join?

May I join you all....even though this is not the first day of August? I so need some help! Having heart palps and withdrawal sweating from last night's binge. No reason for it! Enough is enough!