Well, I tried to catch up a bit on all the threads last night, we got in about midnight, and I had to settle down and re-group to get to sleep, time change and all the sitting about in planes and cars, and WHEW, did I miss alot! I'll try to post to you all here and there as I catch up on the laundry and wet beach, rainforest clothes! As you all know, the weeks leading up to our vacation, were about as bad as its been for me, except when my Dad passed away suddendly at 55. I know More2 posted the "happenings" surrounding my Stepdad's funeral just days prior to our leaving, and about my daughter, and her total HISSY FIT, and meltdown over my slip0up, that you all have read about, prayed about for me, supported me, loved me (in a way I could FEEL from each of you), I have poured my heart out to More2, and Kate over the "drama" over the phone, and to all of you here on the threads, and I can truly say, that I don't think I'd feel like I do right now, without EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU PRAYING FOR ME, AND JUST SENDING HUGS AND THOUGHTS! This site is soooo powerful. And, group prayer, just works, I feel it inside. I truly feel like you guys are my family! It's so wonderful to have so many friends to garner strength from! My daughter didn't go with us to Costa Rica, and I was glad by the time the funeral was over, and hubby and I were on our way to dinner, alone, after all the aftermath! She tried to jump on me once more before we left, and I left her a message that I surely hoped she never messed up and let me find out about it, because I really subscribed to the "Do Unto Others, As You Would Have Them to Do Unto You", and I didn't think this is how she'd want me to Do It to Her! I told her she had many years ahead of her, and had no idea what things might befall her, I hoped and prayed, none, but life is usually never that simple. That I refused to leave the country, or city for that matter, on a bad note, as we'd all just experienced, anything, can happen in an instant, and I wanted no regrets, she could have them, fine, not me. So I told her I loved her, and I'd miss her, and please be safe while we were gone, and not to call me again with any crap, I wasn't leaving on a bad note, and this was my last say, on the subject. I didn't call the entire week, until I had to make sure she got in to get the dog, which she kept for the weekend. What a difference a week makes! Seems she felt a tad guilty, remorseful herself, then, couldn't get good 'ol, "I slipped up and got sloshed" Mom on the phone in a foreign country, and kinda shaped up! Remind me from now on, to put my foot down sooner, after I extract it from said mouth tho! Anyway, she's fine now, I won't tolerate that type of thing anymore, and, I surely won't fret over it. Ditto the rest of my family, they are so dysfunctional, I'm surprised they didn't pop up on YouTube during the whole fiasco. You cannot try to be rational, with irrational, paranoid, self-centered, egotistical spaz's! And, I may say, you can and should take the high road, esp. in a family crisis/diaster, but don't expect any of that to be returned, do it cuz its the right thing to do, then let it go. If you do it thinking, that it will be returned in favor, or change anything, don't even do it, or go there. My experience anyway! I'm just glad its over! NOW, AND PRAYERS DO WORK....LET ME TELL YOU IN WHAT WEIRD WAYS!!!! Just like More2 found a book she needed badly, that had been left on a shelf, and was placed in her hands while packing, that I'm totally enjoying now too....I was in the airport, leaving, still down, kinda dragging, mostly I was sapped of any energy, and just still bummed, needless to say....and saw this book....THE MONK WHO SOLD HIS FERRARI !!!! It caught my attention, and all I can say is, I'm only halfway thru it, and its changed my whole state of mind, and thank you Jesus, I found it in the Houston airport and read it on the plane going to vacation....it was perfect, cuz Costa Rica is sooo beautiful, you can see so much beauty in so many things there. And their people, are so sweet, happy, and have lots less than we do, and smile all the time...and are so geniune!
(ok, no, they don't have legalized pot in Costa Rica...lol...!)....Ya'll have to go get this book, its incredible, and a short easy read! It is life altering! I just had to tell you all about it, it applies to sooooo many of our problems, and why we "medicate" with alot of things, or obsess over this or that....its not about alcohol, its about your mind, spirit and soul.....I can't wait to finish it! I love you all, I'll post more later, gotta be in Tyler to see a councelor about the Celebrate Recovery start up group, if you can find one near you, its a great, fun deal....I've posted about it before, but it started with a pastor at Rick Warren's Saddleback church, being an alcoholic, feeling guilty, and knowing he couldn't be the only one hungover in church on Sunday..its a great program....you can google, Celebrate Recovery....then, gotta pick up the dog, and some groceries, the cupboards are bare! Costa Rica was amazing, relaxing, adventureous to say the least, and very enlightening! I will say this....when the Costa Ricans say something is "exhilarating", that translates in the USA, to "scares the hair off your ass".... that's the best I can put it to ya! We survived and had a awesome time! I love you all! Tons and more tons. Thanks again for taking the time to support me, and love me, it means soooo much, and I promise I WILL recipricate ANYTIME! jill:thanks::h:l
(ok, no, they don't have legalized pot in Costa Rica...lol...!)....Ya'll have to go get this book, its incredible, and a short easy read! It is life altering! I just had to tell you all about it, it applies to sooooo many of our problems, and why we "medicate" with alot of things, or obsess over this or that....its not about alcohol, its about your mind, spirit and soul.....I can't wait to finish it! I love you all, I'll post more later, gotta be in Tyler to see a councelor about the Celebrate Recovery start up group, if you can find one near you, its a great, fun deal....I've posted about it before, but it started with a pastor at Rick Warren's Saddleback church, being an alcoholic, feeling guilty, and knowing he couldn't be the only one hungover in church on Sunday..its a great program....you can google, Celebrate Recovery....then, gotta pick up the dog, and some groceries, the cupboards are bare! Costa Rica was amazing, relaxing, adventureous to say the least, and very enlightening! I will say this....when the Costa Ricans say something is "exhilarating", that translates in the USA, to "scares the hair off your ass".... that's the best I can put it to ya! We survived and had a awesome time! I love you all! Tons and more tons. Thanks again for taking the time to support me, and love me, it means soooo much, and I promise I WILL recipricate ANYTIME! jill:thanks::h:l
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While reading your post I could hear that wonderful sparkle in your voice again!. You are one hell of a woman! This entire year has been filled with one heartbreak and challenge after another for you...test after test, yet, you may be a bit down for a day or two....but you always look for a way to take the high road and take care of whatever it is at the time! So, many of us can learn from you, dear friend!
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