Everything is getting better with me ..Yeah life isn't exactly the way i would like it to be.. But hey in time all things come full circle .. If you ask me today.. If i think about drinking..
I would have to say yes.. But like i have said many times..I already know the outcome if i did and that the deference this time ..
Going through the motion of what i have been through and realizing who i was and who i want to become..
Now it is so different just because 10 months ago i had lost it all and now yes i don't have everything back.. But i have what i need my ,kid's ,girlfriend,health and that right there amount up to allot ..
Where before i was 125 not eating good at all.. Drinking as much as i could or wanted and feeling like shit all the time about myself and everything..
Waking up i the middle of the night, wet from sweating or pissing on myself..My belly problems were the worst.. I didn't want to live.. What i was doing to my is just a slow death ..
Now gaining up to 149 lbs now ..Eating like a horse..Loving life the right way ..
I have learn to accept things the way they are and will be..
Now i know i can change and grow stronger and the thing is..
I did it for me no one else..
Everything i am doing these days are improvements to life..
For everything is changing in so many ways for me now the main goal is to live life the best way i can..
So now all i can say is that i am looking forward to life now and drinking now would mess up everything i have done ..
So there's the key "acknowledging"..
Have an awesome day everyone ..stay strong and think positive
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