September Failure - sorry!! How weak am I????

[Chelle12]

September Failure - sorry!! How weak am I????

Hi Chardonnay,
The "Tell your Story" thread is a good place to read about everyone's lives and triggers. Mine started out to be just a 'social drinker' at weekends, which escalated into drinking at home when I becamse a single parent and then kind of took over my whole life. In the past year I havent strung together 2 days without drinking at least two bottles of wine a day.
Things came to a head when my partner had to ring my mobile phone a couple of weeks ago because he couldnt find me and I didnt know where I was. He found me sitting in a back lane in the pouring rain, close to hypothermia and had to carry me home..
I still drank after that, but have joined the September AF Army and havent drank since sunday night. This is Day 3 for me (for the first time in over a YEAR) and yes, its been bloody hard and living opposite an off-licence which happens to have an 8 foot poster of a bottle of beer(!) outside doesnt help! lol.

Marbella's advice on the antabuse is good. Im still waiting for mine to arrive, but I KNOW I cant drink with it. My doctor refused to give it to me, saying all I needed to do was "stop drinking" (how helpful of him!) and I have a slight concern over any side effects, but I think what Im doing to my health now is far worse than any side effects Antabuse has to offer.

Also, might be a good thing to have a heart-to-heart with your other half.. he may be annoyed with you, but that's NO REASON for him to lash out or shove you around. You need his support now - not his frustration. If you show him that you really want to change, then Im sure he'll be there for you.
Keep reading and Keep posting,
Love
Chelle

[Nurseindistress]

September Failure - sorry!! How weak am I????

We've all been there

Chardonnay,

I could empathize with you when reading your first post. I have written in here before when I felt like a terrible failure--lower than I've ever been before because of my drinking. I have been trying to stop for a couple of months, and haven't been successful, but each month I am drinking less--not just less each day, but more days AF. And it is really getting easier. I could never imagine when I first started how I would ever get through a day without alcohol. I am not taking anything other than the supplements. I feel good about my progress. So, don't feel badly if you can't "just stop". If it was so easy, we wouldn't all be here. But I am certain that if you keep trying it will get easier and you will feel better about it. You don't have to be 100% to be a success-as long as you are making progress. Maybe if you look at it that way it will be easier??? I hope so.:l