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    #31
    AF Army September 29 08

    oh bugger! Im going out to do my chores for the day. have a super duper day all. Speak later. BYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEE!
    To Infinity And Beyond!!

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      #32
      AF Army September 29 08

      Yer, i think so! I did everything it said on the getting started bit, but just cant find the films. Will have a look later!
      To Infinity And Beyond!!

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        #33
        AF Army September 29 08

        Cy , I only buy for the day , thers an offie right accross the road from me, thank god they close at 10 now.!

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          #34
          AF Army September 29 08

          Morning all. What a great first impression i left last night. Ankle is really sore but i will survive. Hubby feels bad about it. I won't be around much today need my rest.

          Have a great day all
          :new:

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            #35
            AF Army September 29 08

            Morning, all. Woke up early, way too early to get anything going on the house situation. Here's another picture taken yesterday evening, looking out at the lake from the house:



            It's so peaceful here. Truly wondering if I should or could just pack up the whole operation in the midwest (Kansas City) and move here. The winters would be so great... the summers, hot and humid... and of course there are the hurricanes. And how would I make a living... ? And of course I can't go anywhere, while my mother is still living.

            Marbella, GOOD FOR YOU for going to the doc to get the naltrexone. I do hope it helps. And Limers, I hope you consider something like that, too, and also Gia... I know you are all having quite a hard time stringing together the AF days... And yet you I know you really want to get this stuff out of your lives.

            Cy, good for you, getting through a really hard time! You are doing just GREAT.

            I've definitely had some drinking thoughts here, the last time I was here with Mother, 4 years ago, I drank a LOT. And the whole business of being here, where I was when I was a child with my alcoholic family, brings up all KINDS of feelings that I am accustomed to responding to with booze. It feels really good to do it differently, right now.

            wip

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              #36
              AF Army September 29 08

              Morning troops!

              Been kind of AWOL for a while and feeling bad for not checking in on how everyone else is doing just because I'm feeling a bit down. I do feel a big difference at the moment because my drinking was not just my normal regular binge as in the past. I've handled them easily and got back up and carried on being AF without a worry. I've been clocking up AF days here and there. even modded quite sensibly for me over a lot of them. But never the less it has been kind of consistent for over a month now. Something I admitted to someone I was not going to do was return to Liverpool and drink and I've done just that. Yes as I say I've modded quite well at times with only a few cans (even 1 some nights) of Strongbow Super but I don't want to feel like I'm battling with it all the time to be honest. I lost that battle last Tue/Wed and it was Thursday that I decided running away to Wales (which was all I was really doing) and not seeing my daughter was not the best laid plans I've ever made!!!!lol. I've had a lot going on in my head this past week with family/childhood/relationship issues but I think I've laid some demons to rest with sharing with someone. I think I just needed to vent to another like minded soul who I didn't feel SO close to (no offence meant to that person!). It helped a great deal over the childhood issues. Family issues I have realised that nothing I say or do is going to change the past. I am still me at the end of the day and my soul (although still a part missing) is always the part of me that makes me who I am. Not my blood line. I'm not going to talk about the last as that is too personal!!!lol

              Anyway YES it does feel very different trying to stay AF again this time around. It feels like the first time all over again after I first decided to quit drinking over 15 months ago. You would think I'd be some kind of veteran at this wouldn't ya? Fraid not folks this is a constant life changing desicion that changes the goal posts at any given moment. So I'm back to not sleeping well at all. Waking up at 3ish and not being able to get back to sleep (at all some nights!). Seem to have all this energy though and makes me feel I'm 'speeding' at times or 'coming down' off the stuff. The excess energy I know I should make better use as if I sit here my brain will go into overdrive and I'll loose it and JUST have a few cans tonight!!. I'm more determinded than ever to get this AF time back under my belt at present and head strong once again that I can achieve it. I know it's gonna help me in many areas of my life to keep a clear perspective in my head and not dwell on the past! (one you know what I mean!)

              Speaking of the lickle ONE, Hope you're feeling better than you were last night. Scraped yourself off the cieling this morning I see to get those kids to school. Or are you still dosed up and flying to school this morning.

              Cym again Congrats on 30 days yesterday. Good to know the B&B got bailed out and your savings are safe. That's why I keep all mine in me mattress mate!

              Limers! DOH! Don't beat yourself up hun. As I say the goal posts change all the time and deciphering were they're gonna be next is not an easy task. Keep ya chin up hun!

              Chelle, Marbs, Vlad, Lastchance, Starting, Krigs, WIP and all the rest of the gang have a good day. Sorry I can't reply individually to all of you but I'd be here forever catching up with what's been happening over these last few days. Love to you all

              Love and Happiness
              Hippie
              xx
              "Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
              Clean and sober 25th January 2009

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                #37
                AF Army September 29 08

                Thanks Hippie , Im telling ya tho, im feeling rough!
                WIP, that view is amazing , God you are so lucky!

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                  #38
                  AF Army September 29 08

                  Limers I felt a real insanity return on Thursday. I don't get rough anymore if I binge, I get mental!lol. Make sure you eat something properly today though yeah?

                  Love and Happiness
                  Hippie
                  xx
                  "Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
                  Clean and sober 25th January 2009

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                    #39
                    AF Army September 29 08

                    Will do , eating porrige as we speak!

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                      #40
                      AF Army September 29 08

                      YUK! Dolphin made me some porridge a while back and I've never tasted anything so salty in all me life. She didn't add any extra salt either! Mind due you could drink the porridge the way she makes it!!lol Each to their own I guess!!
                      "Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
                      Clean and sober 25th January 2009

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                        #41
                        AF Army September 29 08

                        I find it great when im feeling"that way"!

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                          #42
                          AF Army September 29 08

                          I like my porridge like wall paper paste
                          Living now and not just existing since 9th July 2008
                          Nicotine Free since 6th February 2009

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                            #43
                            AF Army September 29 08

                            how are yyou feeling one 2?
                            Living now and not just existing since 9th July 2008
                            Nicotine Free since 6th February 2009

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                              #44
                              AF Army September 29 08

                              One 2, I really wish you would see the doctor hun....you have been poorly for such a long time.
                              OK, lecture over...
                              Living now and not just existing since 9th July 2008
                              Nicotine Free since 6th February 2009

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                                #45
                                AF Army September 29 08

                                one2many;426058 wrote: i would not eat porridge if my life depended on it.......
                                A girl after my own heart!!!lol

                                Do you have to pay to see your GP? That's outrageous!
                                "Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
                                Clean and sober 25th January 2009

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