AF Army 4th October

[startingover]

AF Army 4th October

AK, my heart goes out to you. WIP has given such good advice though and I think you handled it brilliantly. I am sure the first thing i would have thought was to have a drink. You didnt, you must be very proud of yourself. I think the hardest thing is coping with emotions. That is my biggest struggle. You are doing great!

[Guest]

AF Army 4th October

im just going to make some fairy cakes and let the kids decorate them whatever way they like.

[cymru]

AF Army 4th October

Man, i cannot get 100% on rock n roll all night. And G/F can. MUST KEEP TRYING!!!

[akmom]

AF Army 4th October

I'm doing ....OK...but thank you for the boost. I love limers saying that boredom is a huge trigger. I guess I never look at it from another point of view. I never have a day where there isn't something that HAS to be done. Like today, 2 basketball games, cello lessons, getting supplies for a diorama for a book report, hubby at work until 7 tonight. I did plan one day last week, Thursday, to not leave the house all day. But that got nipped in the bud when my 7th grader called to say she forgot her homework. So bundled the kids up, (there's a lot more work involved in the winter, they move so slow because they are bundled up like big marshmellow's), got them all in the car, had to wait for the car to warm up and get the snow off(garage is full of hubby's toys and hunting crap), before I could even leave. So I AM thankful that I always have things to keep me busy, but somedays I would like to get up and not have anything to do. Hell, I don't think I've even peed by myself in 6 years, as there's always a child, or my hubby wanting something. You know I think I'm going to change my name....as of right now I am no longer "MOM" I am "DAD". Much less busy that way!!!!!

[cymru]

AF Army 4th October

Look at this kid!! He must do nothing else but play GH!!!
[ame=http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=-XjaImfQK6U]YouTube - Guitar Hero World Record (CBS News)[/ame]

[Guest]

AF Army 4th October

dont get me wrong ak, ive 4 kids and all the run around , I mind another kid monday to friday and have a spanish girl (12) living with us for 9 weeks till end of nov, and im doing a degree part time as well..im busy! I just find all the childminding , running around boreing!

[akmom]

AF Army 4th October

You're right limers....after a while it becomes tedious and daunting.....I do it because I love them not because I want to......I appreciate your insight more than I can tell you!!!

[Guest]

AF Army 4th October

cymru;431208 wrote: Man, i cannot get 100% on rock n roll all night. And G/F can. MUST KEEP TRYING!!!

????????:H Whaa?

[rubywillow]

AF Army 4th October

AK, still here? I still get LOTS of questions and looks. I finally told Hubs he's not helping my sobriety, may even endanger it. Some scrutiny we have to take. It took a long time to lose trust, it'll take a while to get it back. I used to do all that mommy stuff, and now I'm alone all day. Be careful what you wish for!

[bloggy]

AF Army 4th October

akmom;431178 wrote: I know that WIP, but after he got home last night, after I had my feelings in check, he had nothing so say about it. He wouldn't even tell me why he asked me that. Apparently I am the only one who has to accept responsibility for my actions and words. It bothered me that he could just blow it off like it never happened. I have 17 months AF, minus 3 days in August. I normally have my emotions in check just fine and I don't let things like that bother me, but this totally came out of left field.

Gosh AK- I would have been furious!

How dare he ask you something like that? I mean how dare he ask you anyway in that tone and at that moment after you have been working so hard?

I can comprehend a question like that if I am noticeably pissed, the house is filthy, the dogs aren't fed or whatever, but if I had had a few drinks and wasn't drunk and my BF spoke to me like that I would be furious.

Ask him the same question later- when he is watch TV or something- see how he likes it.

[akmom]

AF Army 4th October

I don't know...part of me want's to just forget it ever came out of his mouth. Go back to 20 minutes before he said it and all would be fine. It's not like I'm not used to the question, I get it all the time from my mother if I forget to do something she asked me to do, or if I am having an off day. She is a total control freak and I think there are times she gets pleasure in seeing other people fail. Plus the big one, she totally thinks being anonymous is a joke. Every time I would slip in the past, immediately the whole town knows about it. I would get these looks from people I know that are friends of my mothers. It felt like she got her sympathy for the day from her friends..."Oh, poor thing, your daughter is an alcoholic, that must be so hard." Anyway...it's tough bringiing my head back up to normal level after a scene like that, but I am trying. Should make him eat top ramen for a week, then have him ask me that question!!!!

[vlad]

AF Army 4th October

For Cymru!

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]YouTube - Willo The Wisp - The Dragon[/ame]

[bloggy]

AF Army 4th October

You are probably right about trying to forget it, but I am afraid I would bring it up even if just to let him know, that type of comment does not help one's sobriety!

[rubywillow]

AF Army 4th October

Hey, Marbs! Haven't talked to you in a while! (Or have I, lost lots of brain cells over the years)LOL

[rubywillow]

AF Army 4th October

I keep missing everyone!