I need smoking rehab..........f*** all else is going to work...........I may well have managed to quit drinking, but..........I am a far cry from being in control of my life.........nicotine calls the shots here and I dance to its tune........every time. :upset:
So, this afternoon, I have here one irate teenager, as I have broken yet another "solemn promise" to quit TODAY. Add to that the fact that I have just had an emergency appointment with my GP..........turns out I have phlebitis in a vein in my leg, and it`s painful, `cos it`s infected........lovely!!!!! Doc gave me antibiotics and said if the leg isn`t on the mend in 3 days........I`ll have to have antibiotics administered intravenously.......lovelier!!!!
So, am currently on the receiving end of the wrath of one very disgruntled teen and as if that`s not enough..........I have one "gommy" leg, yet still I sit here puffing away like Fag Ash Lil.
What is it going to take to make me see sense???!!!! I am well aware of all the stats that prove that smoking kills, but that knowledge isn`t power in this instance. Nicotine is my Master and I am his lowly slave.
I really do wish they`d just throw me in a smoking rehab. I can`t win the smoking battle, `cos where nicotine is concerned...........I have zero willpower to even fight the battle, let alone win it. Am sad.........where fags are concerned.........I am all talk and no action. :upset: :upset: :upset:
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