AF Army 21st October 2008

[startingover]

AF Army 21st October 2008

I wish I could fully forgive my dad

[Captnjack]

AF Army 21st October 2008

I have come back to read this Ruby thanks !!!!! I want too hugg you!!! I dont like crying hate crying

[Captnjack]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Sorry guys I do believe well Im nothing anymore at what point do you begin to feel you are on ya way to worth it!!!!!!how does worth it feel Im am so fucking depressed I havent touched a drop for a month and i feel like eating my own fingers !!!!! So when do i begin to feel healthy

[startingover]

AF Army 21st October 2008

for me I had many ups and downs especially between 1 &2 months. My body was healing but my mind was lagging behind. I am over 3 months now and much more stable than I was.

[startingover]

AF Army 21st October 2008

still have down days but they aren't nearly so desperate as they were

[DeeBee]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Rubes, what a beautiful touching story:-)

Cap, YOU CAN DO THIS!!! If you need another set of fingers to chew pm me.

[cke123]

AF Army 21st October 2008

or me

[rubywillow]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Hugs to you too, Cap, and everyone. Cap that's the great mystery question! one2 had a day like that yesterday. When I start to feel that way, the only thing that helps me is an about face. Break the routine, take a trip, make an adventure, something different. Some place, same people, same problems, you know. We have to remember the world out there. I know sounds trite, but it's what works for me, and you have to find what works for you. Just QUIT THINKING ABOUT IT FOR A WHILE! Do something that demands your attention, sort of like walking a real tightrope. Our own minds drive us crazy. I told someone else today, quit looking at yourself thru everyone else's eyes. Tell yourself, even if you THINK you lying, I'm good enough, I'm worth it. You gotta fix yourself FOR yourself. That's the only way it works. LUV YA, BIG GUY!

[DeeBee]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Ruby you are a wise one!

Cap,
"be kind to yourself
life is a journey not a destination"

[vlad]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Hi again AF Army!

[rubywillow]

AF Army 21st October 2008

OK it's been a funky day here. There's a good ole' word, funky, or in a funk. Kids today think it means gross! Where have we gone wrong? LOL

[vlad]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Where is everybody?

[A Work in Progress]

AF Army 21st October 2008

Hiding.

[startingover]

AF Army 21st October 2008

I am here in my sick bed LOL

[rubywillow]

AF Army 21st October 2008

I'm around. Mentally exhausting day. Hate to say had to spend hours scheduling dr. appts., etc.