It has taken all of these past 14 mnths., but now I`ve finally found my way forward. This is a traumatic, yet hugely exciting time in my life.......am in for a rough couple of months with all that`s going on, but sometimes we have to suffer a little to appreciate just how sweet life can be. This is the turning point in my life.......I`ve been forced to face reality and now I have found the guts to embrace that reality.......hard as the next couple of months are bound to be........this time and circumstance shall be the making of me.
Admittedly, I`ve felt as though I`ve been teetering on the edge of a nervous breakdown these past few weeks........was intent on finding the easy way forward, only.........sometimes there is no easy way. Am now able to embrace the magnitude of effort that has to be invested in a way forward.
I have faith in myself now. Life has dealt me many blows........ALL as a direct result of my own bad choices. I alone am to blame for my own mess, and I alone now take back control and ackowledge that I can fix this mess and never again make bad choices.
I am a strong woman and my life is about to change forever. I always felt rather disappointed in becoming sober.........I was JUST sober........in itself, sobriety doesn`t make for happiness.
This is my "letting go". I am moving forward towards my happiness now........the kind of complete happiness that we all have to find for ourselves.
My rock-bottom has only just surfaced, all of 14 mnths. into sobriety. I am a strong and capable woman. I have every faith in myself that the only way is up for me now. Am forward bound.
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