When I first came to MWO I was obsessed, depressed and struggling with a problem I'd been fighting for a number of years. I actually stumbled across this site by accident, was reading a news article about women my age having drink problems and think it just happened to be a sponsored listing on the page. I clicked on the link, had a quick browse through the forum, thought, 'Oh, that's nice...'and went away.
The truth is, I already thought I was fixed - I'd managed to reduce my every day excessive vodka drinking habit down to just 2 beers a day with 4 or 5 drinks on Sat. Yep, I thought I was fixed.
What? Obsessing about alcoholic rubbish in the gutter, dreaming about giant vodka bottles in your sleep, thinking about booze all day until it hurts so much - call that fixed??? The thought of going without AL for any length of time seemed impossible to me, I'd always made a point in the past of abstaining for Lent - for the last 2 years I couldn't face it, so didn't bother.
The thought of the MWO site played on my mind, and the very next day I posted my story (still thinking I was fixed). I soon began to realise I wasn't and began posting about my past and present issues and it was a great relief to realise I wasn't the only person fantasising about that vodka bottle in the grass as I was driving to work or dreaming about vending machines that dispensed cans of lager. Recently I looked back at my early posts from June, I seemed so distressed and frustrated. I certainly don't feel that way now - thanks to RJ, MWO and everyone here.
Although I was curious about an empty liquor bottle in the gutter this morning!!! It was the other side of the road yesterday, I know it was. I have to laugh about it now.
I suggest though, look back at your old threads and posts - it certainly gave me a lift.
The truth is, I already thought I was fixed - I'd managed to reduce my every day excessive vodka drinking habit down to just 2 beers a day with 4 or 5 drinks on Sat. Yep, I thought I was fixed.
What? Obsessing about alcoholic rubbish in the gutter, dreaming about giant vodka bottles in your sleep, thinking about booze all day until it hurts so much - call that fixed??? The thought of going without AL for any length of time seemed impossible to me, I'd always made a point in the past of abstaining for Lent - for the last 2 years I couldn't face it, so didn't bother.
The thought of the MWO site played on my mind, and the very next day I posted my story (still thinking I was fixed). I soon began to realise I wasn't and began posting about my past and present issues and it was a great relief to realise I wasn't the only person fantasising about that vodka bottle in the grass as I was driving to work or dreaming about vending machines that dispensed cans of lager. Recently I looked back at my early posts from June, I seemed so distressed and frustrated. I certainly don't feel that way now - thanks to RJ, MWO and everyone here.
Although I was curious about an empty liquor bottle in the gutter this morning!!! It was the other side of the road yesterday, I know it was. I have to laugh about it now.
I suggest though, look back at your old threads and posts - it certainly gave me a lift.
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