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[Bella]

Hi all....I'm not even going to bother telling you all where I'm at ..at the moment. Its the same old story. I supose I'm posting this because I felt I needed some support..and I guess this is the place to get that. I have spent the last 5 days hardly drinking at all...so, in my twisted sick head...I am feeling .."Bella...you need a treat, you deserve a few drinks to celebrate." Thats how I have become now. Good, then bad. Good, then bad. Its terribly boring .....and I'm sorry to post this.

Anyway, I better go...the baby is crying.

Bella XXXXX

[kali]

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I felt just the same way yesterday, thought (in my twisted brain) I would treatment myself. Well today I'm paying the price, because we all know how that turned out, a bottle of wine and several martini's later - It's not worth it try to be strong and get through the day, you will be happier tomorrow.

[Hopeful mom]

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Isn't it amazing that that voice in our heads can have that much control over us? I actually went for 7 days AF and then blew it terribly. Today is a new day and tomorrow will be brighter.

[rubywillow]

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Bella, you're recognizing that your making the CHOICE to be bad. That's where the change begins. When you make the choice NOT to drink, and consider that is your treat, doing something that actually will reward you, tomorrow and long term. Keep coming back and posting. That's one way to help you make the 'right' choice.
Rubes

[Mackeral]

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I know how you feel Bella..I know it sounds old but try and treat yourself in another way...I know its not the same..Do it anyway..Different kind of buzz..:l

[Angelique]

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I hope you're ok Bella and didn't give in to your "craving." I know I probably would have. I take that back... maybe not today.(one day at a time ) I guess we will always have to be on guard...ESPECIALLY when we're feeling good about ourselves. I think that's when it sneaks up on you the most! Best wishes.
xoxox
-Ange.

[gyco]

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bella never be sorry,i did feel the same after 10 months,i dont feel sorry no more,i have found a new home,MWO,they will listen im here for you babes,gyco and im not loaded hahahha

[Mags]

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Bella, my dear friend. I hope you recognize that you are going through the transition - the process. You have been in this this process for so long and have been fighitning for so long. We have known each other for a long time. I have always had every confidence that you would keep moving forward as you still are doing today.

You are a remarkably brave woman. You have been fighting for such a long time. But you have always been making progress. The fight has been long and hard so far but you have made such great strides. Please don't give up. You know we are all behind you.

Oh damn, by now I have forgotten your original post. I got so carried away with myself. Please forgive me. But you remember that I have always known you and I always care for you and really mean that. You get stronger every time I hear from you. I am always here for you.

Remember, you're gonna do this. We're here for you

:l Mags

[Determinator]

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Bella, you've been doing great, time for a treat! may I suggest an at-home movie or trip to the theater?
some chocolate? drive to the lake to fly a kite with the kids? some new music?

nice to hear from you...let us know how you're doing

[Seacailin]

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"I have a disease that tells me I don't have a disease". I know exactly how you feel. Jump right back on track. You can do it.

[Guitarista]

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Sea....'i have a disease that tells me i don't have a disease'. Right on!...haven't heard that one before..thanks, G.

[Bella]

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that is a great saying and v true..

Just to say....thanks for such great support...you all understand me! That is very comforting. I'm lucky.

Last night i drank alot but i realised when it was time to stop and went to bed. That is a BIG achievement for me....it really is...I only went to bed as i knew my husband would go mad if i didnt but still...i didnt argue, i stopped.

Today is ok too. I'm not hanging in bits with a hangover.....shock horror!!! lol

Thanks again......its good, really good having you all around. Bella XXXXX

[Guitarista]

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Hi there Bella... Glad you're not (too?) Hungover! Great you say you realised when to stop, and recognise that as a big acheivement for you... Good stuff...G.