Tales from a lurker

[vealees]

My name is Victoria. Some days ago well. approx 38, I found myself in the toilet. Those who responded to me know what I mean.. Anyway, since then I have been lurking and in the beginning even posted a few. Ive done well. Given myself some rules to live by and am following them. I don't drink until I am angry any more which is why I drank myself into oblivion in the first place. I am ANGRY. I am simply angry. I am soberly angry. Which is better than drunkenly angry because the sons of bitches that helped make me that way, take you a bit more seriously!!HA!! Its not there fault I know but its a start!!!I heard a comedian say, " my mom is bitching because she has to pay for my theropist, I said," you broke it. You fix it !!!HA!! Well im too old for that but I understand.Anyway I am much better. Thanks!! My way out is such a great place. Im still lurking................

[Determinator]

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Victoria, thank you for sharing. I'm not normally angry however I went through phases of really bad mood swings when I was trying to mod. it just seemed so unfair that it wouldn't freaking work for me. aaaarh! I tried and tried and kept falling on my face. after i was well into my AF lifestyle things really calmed down in my mind and I found a soothing equilibrium that was foreign and yet wonderfully alluring to my tortured soul.
you may find that being AF 'does it" for you and then again it may not. and you may not be looking at AF anyway. I've heard wonderful things about counseling for various things including anger issues.
Have you thought about an anger specialist?

all the best to you...and so glad you are enjoying MWO as I do.

[greeneyes]

Tales from a lurker

There's a book called "Getting Rid Of Anger" you might consider reading.

[beatle]

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Good to hear you are doing better, V!

As Determinator says, and as you probably are experiencing, a lot of issues resolve themselves the more time we have sober. Or at least you find yourself better able to tackle them. I've experienced this so much that, even when I slip, I seem to be able to remember this fact when I get into a drunken depression, and it even helps me to calm down and sober up. (I hope I've done that for the last time now, though!).

I hope it keeps getting better for you.