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[Mags]

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I honestly don't know what is going on here and don't spend time and don't respond to these threads. But I do remember when I was almost lying in a gutter. Not pretty times for me. I have done things I am not proud of and it took me a hell of a lot to move forward from there. But I hope I have never forgotten where I was for some time and how hard it was to get the hell out of there.

I really, really want to forget those times, because they are in my past now. But they are part of my life also. I don't really remember hands stretched out to me in friendship and tentative support in the early days, but I do remember a few reluctant fingers thrown my way. Wow, were those fingers so big to me when I had nothing else to hold on to.

When someone cries for help, the least we can do is try to listen. Who gets hurt more if it does not work out? I am less of a person if I do not try. I remember.

[Evie.Lou]

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You are right on Mags.
I am so thankful that I had the loving hands at MWO...I may not have been sitting here, reading this if you all hadn't been here??
It has been unconditional love and I won't turn my back on anyone who is reaching out...NOT ANYONE, NOT EVER !!!

[IAD]

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Maddiva...I have gone back to one of your threads where you have posted that you noticed that you might of offended someone. This I quess has been a problem before.....come back and work this out.....you have'nt been anywhere that any of us have'nt been. I'm too full of caution sometimes....too many have been hurt here by others. We are here to help, including myself. IAD

[lil.michelle]

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Gia - I think you can wank as much as you like. I think it only beomes a problem when a women walks funny as a result *lol* and a mans cock (i'm giggling when i say that hehehe, so childish) gets the nickname PINKY.

[Sweetgum]

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I have had more love and support from this site than my own family, last week i phoned my brother and three sisters in turn, in tears asking for them to come and be with me, but none of them would because i was drunk and they dont want to know, one of them only lives two streets away. I came here and you gave me support, nobody judged, nobody turned me away. I am so grateful to you all for that x

[Mackeral]

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I thought this was a self help thread..

[Heavenly]

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Mackeral;481223 wrote: I thought this was a self help thread..

Trust you to say that Mackeral !! ha ha ha ... well it is good to help yourself sometimes isn't it ? :H

Maddiva is OK, she is one of us ... struggling as we all did at the beginning ....

[maddiva]

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wELL THANK YOU ALL. i ONLY EVER CAME HERE TO GET BETTER, BUT REALISE I MUST DO MOST IF NOT OF ALL OF THE WORK MYSELF. I DO HAVE A DRINK PROBLEM. HAVE BEGGED AND PLEADED FOR HELP. BUT I AM IGNORED BY THE MEDICS SO I TRY MYSELF. YESTERDAY WAS A REALLY BAD DAY FOR ME. I DID NOT REALIZE. BUT IT WAS AND WOULD I HAVE POSTED. ALSO THE DRUNK BABBLINGS OF A MAD WOMAN HENCE MY NAME MAD DIVA TOOK OVER. BUT ABSOLUTELY NOT. MY FINGERS GOT THE BETTER OF ME AND GENERALLY IT IS MY MOUTH. HOW MANY OF YOU CAN HONESTLY AND THAT IS THE WORD HERE HONESTLY SAY THAT WHEN YOU WERE DRUNK YOU WERE THE REAL YOU? IT TOOK ME A LOT TO READ YOUR POSTS/THREADS AS I FELT SO ASHAMED AND LITTLE. STUPID AS WELL. BUT I SUCCUMBED, AFTER SOME GOOD FOLK WROTE TO ME PRIVATELY AND TOLD ME THEY UNDERSTOOD. FAR BETTER THAN ME FOR I FAIL TO UNDERSTAND IT. MAYBE IF I UNDERSTOOD IT I COULD GET BETTER. I HATE THIS DRINK. I REALLY HATE IT AND IF I CAN BE ALLOWED TO SWEAR (SEE ASKING FOR PERMISSION) I FUCKING HATE IT. WHY CAN'T I GET BETTER?

[Seacailin]

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Glad you are here Mad, and sorry that u are struggling. I have done more things that I regret while drinking than I care to remember. Time will heal. You are right. You do have to do most of the work, but we are here to help and support you.

[gabby]

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Heavenly;481230 wrote: .. struggling as we all did at the beginning ....

...and in the middle and as your going along all the way.....ya can't give up and can never stop trying...and it's always some kind of hard or anther...

[maddiva]

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oh shut up. silly cow took it off line, cos even she found it offensive.

[vlad]

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maddiva;481291 wrote: oh shut up. silly cow took it off line, cos even she found it offensive.

:H

[A Work in Progress]

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gabby;481274 wrote: it's always some kind of hard or another...

Immortal words, Gabs! Very well put. It is simple, and simply true: there's always something that makes it seem difficult NOT to drink... there are endless excuses. And if we believe that drinking is helpful when we are going through a difficult situation, then we are easy pickings for these thoughts. The truth is, of course, that "no situation is so bad that drinking won't make it worse."

I'm going to remember this one, and use it, OK?

[Captnjack]

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UMM whats "anther" well the teacher got it WRONG!!!!!! sorry hate typos no where near immortal !!!!! in the sub cave its immortal !!! the usuall suspects may emerge and begin the attack!!!!!!

[Cinders]

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Yes, it is hard in the beginning, it is hard in the middle and it is hard forever.

Let us not forget that.

It is difficult (read that hard) to stay sober. Why? There are heaps of medical reasons. They mean nothing.

Maddiva. Hang in there. Hang in there because beyond there, there be dragons.

Our long termers still read and still post help, WHY???, because it is still difficult (not SOOO difficult because they are still doing it) but it is difficult.

No, this addiction will not go away. It is here to stay.

We all have to deal with it in whatever way we can.

Some do the supplements, exercise, whatever, and others just bull on through with sheer dint of will.

Doesn't matter.

What matters is that we continue to try to beat it. My dear Bear always told me "Never give up trying to give up." He knew what he was talking about. He was "one of us." He cared and he cared a lot.

I care. I wish I was the sober one giving strength to my dear friends here but I am not. YET!!!

I will be, though. I will be.

Love,
Cindi