My mum was embarking on a series of operations to treat various cancers that had been misdiagnosed over the previous months...my dog Yogi had just been diagnosed with terminal cancer....I was in a job that I needed to get out of...my drinking was out of control along with my depression. I also had a lump in my own breast and a part of me was hoping it was cancerous too so that I could bail out of this life with a good excuse...That was such a low point in my life and I couldnt see myself ever feeling any different..
Now, I look back and can hardly recognise the person that I was.
Today, my mum is through the operations, she is not great, but she is not suffering like she was, yes, Yogi died, but we were able to make his last months really special, the fact that he is no longer with us means that it was easy to take in my mums dog as she can no longer look after her...my job is not an issue any more because I have been made redundant my depression has gone and I am no longer drinking...those two things are definitely intertwined. I drank because I was depressed, I was depressed because I drank.
This has taught me that bad times dont last forever, life is always changing, it can be a rollercoaster at times, but being sober for me is the key to coping with it, dealing with the rough times and enjoying the good times.
I am so grateful for my sobriety...2008 has been a life changing year, I am really beginning to learn about myself and be happy in my life...I am looking forward to 2009 and I NEVER thought I would say that...
All of this is thanks to all of you here, you have literally given me my life back. Thank you :l
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