Well, its finally arrived...I hope all are in good spirits so to speak?
I am not sure how I am to be honest, I think OK, but yes there definitely feels like somethings missing...so what I have decided to do is just go with the flow...see how it pans out and not put any pressure on myself to be any way I am just going to be...if that makes sense...It is another day, and it will be sober so for that I am VERY grateful.
I am going to my brothers and I have an exit strategy planned for when I have had enough..Rich understands and is supportive so I have no problem there...he has even said he wont drink today while we are out so that will help...he'll have a few this evening no doubt but thats ok...
As I am typing this, I am feeling better about the whole thing....
Yes, this Christmas is going to be very different, but it will be better, I will see the whole day through with no embarrassment or worry about trying to act sober or hide the amount of drinks I am putting away, or worry that there wont be enough to last until the shops are open again, I will wake tomorrow with no regrets, no blank spots and no hangover....
I am happier already!!!
Have a superb day everyone,
May this Christmas be the best for all.
Love Startingover
xxx
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