Phew, what can I say? I have been unable to get here lately........am really sorry. Well, am still AF and still fag-free, so........it`s a start, right??? 
Mmmmm.......can`t say I`ve much liked this Christmas, but I managed to put on a happy face........you know how it is sometimes........I really couldn`t be arsed, but you get labelled something of the party pooper if you`re not grinning from ear to ear, you know, so..........I did what was `required` of me..........sooooooooooo tedious.
Oh f***...........next we have to deal with Hogmanay no less........is just an excuse to get legless here in Scotland for far too many.........you know the kind of thing.........queues all the way round the block at the off-sales..........not having your first drink `til `the Bells` on the stroke of midnight. I can only thank God that I will not be joining those queues or having that first drink this New Year.
This New Year is huge for me, in that I consider it my starting point. I no longer drink and I no longer smoke.........big deal !!!!...........none of that has been life-changing. In saying that, I must also thank God for small mercies.........I am `clean` after all, and as such, am now able to ackowledge that the life Star lives does not truly mirror the life that Star would like to live and finally after 3 long years on my own.........I feel ready to love again. Yip, I need that special someone who can blow me away..........the sooner the better!!!!! :H
I am the strongest I have ever been. So, for me, 2009 is about seeking and finding all that fulfils me and what/who will make me truly happy. Am brimful of optimism. Bring it on!!!!
I don`t have to say it, `cos I`m sure you can feel it from me, but I`ll say it anyway. I love you.
Star xxx
Mmmmm.......can`t say I`ve much liked this Christmas, but I managed to put on a happy face........you know how it is sometimes........I really couldn`t be arsed, but you get labelled something of the party pooper if you`re not grinning from ear to ear, you know, so..........I did what was `required` of me..........sooooooooooo tedious.
Oh f***...........next we have to deal with Hogmanay no less........is just an excuse to get legless here in Scotland for far too many.........you know the kind of thing.........queues all the way round the block at the off-sales..........not having your first drink `til `the Bells` on the stroke of midnight. I can only thank God that I will not be joining those queues or having that first drink this New Year.
This New Year is huge for me, in that I consider it my starting point. I no longer drink and I no longer smoke.........big deal !!!!...........none of that has been life-changing. In saying that, I must also thank God for small mercies.........I am `clean` after all, and as such, am now able to ackowledge that the life Star lives does not truly mirror the life that Star would like to live and finally after 3 long years on my own.........I feel ready to love again. Yip, I need that special someone who can blow me away..........the sooner the better!!!!! :H
I am the strongest I have ever been. So, for me, 2009 is about seeking and finding all that fulfils me and what/who will make me truly happy. Am brimful of optimism. Bring it on!!!!
I don`t have to say it, `cos I`m sure you can feel it from me, but I`ll say it anyway. I love you.
Star xxx