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[inhiding]

24 hours to a new beginning. I plan to stop the insanity and become AF tommorrow. What if I don't like my life without being able to numb myself?

[Lila]

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Let's deal with that when it happens, BU. Maybe you have to make some very tough decisions. We are all here for you. Drinking too much is suicide. When you make the right choices for yourself, I do believe you get divine protection.
I don't mean to sound religious, but I am spiritual, and I do think one gets divine guidance.

[A Work in Progress]

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Bottoms, I agree with Lila. Don't get ahead of yourself, worrying about things that have not happened. Worrying about stuff that may or may not happen in the future is one of the biggest triggers for drinking, actually; whereas, staying present with what is going on right now, and what needs to be done right now, is an important skill for life... partly because it helps us to not feel that we "need" or want to escape from our own lives.

Just stop the drinking. Then you will be able to do whatever is needed to manage, appreciate, and even enjoy your life!

Make a good, solid plan... and follow the plan. Stick around here and ask for help, OK?

[Sunbeam]

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I really like all of the strategies on this web site:
Relaxation Strategies

Any of the strategies here are much better than drinking.

[Evie.Lou]

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You will have lots more good advise so stay close to this site.
Together we can make it happen...SOBER for 2009 all the way !!!

[cymru]

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It wont happen over night sup. All those feelings that you have kept bottled up will start to come out and you will have to deal with them, rather than drink them away. But, as you deal with the problems one by one your life will get better, and you will start living rather than exsisting. It wont happen over night, but it WILL happen without the bottle. Stay close to us, talk and listen, and TOGETHER we will do this in 09. x

[KAT20]

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BU, I can so relate. I was scared as well and sometimes still am. It does get better. What you are doing is the best, reach out for support and guidance and it will pull you through. I am spiritual as well, pick who ever or what ever you want and ask for that guidance. Very best to you.

[keeta]

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Bottomsup:

It is ok to be scared. Change can be scary.

Try not to think too far ahead about your life without alcohol other than to plan ahead for times you might be easily triggered to drink. My big "routine" drinking times were my Mondays off work, cause no kids, hubby at work...this was my "me" time. (how sick is that, but, that has not been an easy one to over come) Drinking after grocery shopping (we go every two weeks, due to the distance from a grocery store, and so it is a huge under taking)...always stopped on the way home for my beer. While cooking big dinners...big habitual drinking time. There are lots more, and to be honest, I drank whenever I could get away with it...but thos were (are) some of my bigger triggers aside from stress and anger situations where I hads trouble coping with my emotions because I had allowed AL to become my coping mechanism.

Oh, bottom, I am sorry I rambled on. all my above babbling basically was to say, plan ahead. Being sober in any situation is FAR better than being in it drunk. I can promise you THAT much!
Be strong, stay close, keep posting. This is an amzing place filled with supportive understanding people!

YOU CAN DO IT! :l:l

[Michaela]

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Best of luck to you Bottoms.

Just remember you never hear anyone say.... My life became BETTER because of alcohol.

[inhiding]

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Thank you all, even though I am scared, I am looking forward to a life of my own. I can do things after 6pm without worrying if someone will smell AL on my breath.....I can take the kids to movie and shopping at night because I won't be afraid of killing them in a car accident cause I was DUI...It's almost like my life with AL is 1/2 mine and 1/2 AL's....I guess I just have to keep the positive in mind. I intend to stay close here though. I noticed last night I drank alot less because I was on this site....It is fun. Love some of the humor..........I used to have a great sense of humor.....hope to get that back!:grannypants:
Thus my name: bottoms up!

[Rags2riches]

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Michaela, I like your point. This is my day one (again) and as I was pouring the remaining alcohol down the drain this morning (yes, there was just a little left) with my somewhat shaky hands, I tried desperately to think of just one positive that all of this drinking has brought to my life. There was one thing that the alcohol added to my life - about 20 pounds - not sure that is a positive - LOL! BU, I'm scared too, but I think that change is often times is scary. I'm also a worrier and the way I figure, I can cross one off the list because I no longer have to worry about the house catching on fire in the middle of the night and me being too drunk to get myself and my children out! Gosh, I feel better now!

[inhiding]

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Ok ..here we go. We are getting ready to have 26 16 yr olds at our house for new years eve...call me krazed but I am so happy our daughter is not sooooooooooo embarrased that she doesn't want her friend over........I can't be that bad, right? Well this is my last day with AL. I will sneak it just as always but the hubby will be here if I can't last the whole night............perhaps that is the reason for our marital probs.....but I can't wait for tommorrow.....Great New Year to you all.

[Lila]

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good luck Bottoms,
Just don't be too crazy with that last night business...you know what I mean!!
Let's all have an great 2009 and start to DEAL with life, especially ME.
Lila

[hulagirl]

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I can relate to your fear. I wondered if I would like my husband if I stopped drinking! Honestly, there are times when you won't like your life. There are times when I don't like my husband. But being able to think rationally and deal with it is sooo much better than trying to escape from it.

[gyco]

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i usually give advice once,must of been gloating in my own agony dam gyco