since i came here

[jay42]

since i came here ...... seems so long ago .
i did get a lot out of this site m dont know maybe its me i cant along with people then again in my work i worked with a severly autistic guy for 3 months and i got him to talk and im not mental health professional just a voulnteer
so if people reject me its thier problem not me i know im pretty dark ./ but to see the dark you have to see the light
i dont know of any other religious thought that does not entail this .
sort of like rasputin sin and you will know
im sober as i write this
my brother has no undertanding how it is over here ( he lives in hungary)
i cant get housing tho ive applied so manytimes ive lost count , local people who have live here all thier lives dont count anymore
im not getting into a political discussion
thats not the point of this site
what really is the answer?
af ? but then what......
for me there has to be something spitiually based / yet i dont idenify with any rel;gion
prehaps the french philospher camus was right when he spoke about the absurdity of life and the only meaning is in human realtionships
. but if u cant or try to have a realtionship you always fall bac k on yourself and trying to make sense of it all
then your alone again
battle on i guess

[Boss.man]

since i came here

Jay, Camus was right, and it all does make sense. That's your foundation.

As one of the few people on this site who speaks Magyarul, I find that connection interesting.

I carry a lot of anger for my neighbors when they do rude things to me. To people on the political "other side" who don't think. To all wars in general, because it's totally wrong to kill children for any political aim.

But the key focus is on what I can change. I can change myself. I can change my household. I can hope to change my neighborhood.

Does that make sense?

[BecomingMeAtLast]

since i came here

Hi Jay,

This is for you :l

Good luck with your journey.

Be

[jay42]

since i came here

poem

a poem


take care
you who defend and define your own lives
never
will you cause to boast
whatever war you may have won
you your self are blameless
whisper like me
.. victory in silence (jl_