I just wanted to check in briefly to let those of you who remember me know how I am doing. Today I have reached 225 days, or 7 ? months without a drink. It?s been an exciting journey and I try to be grateful everyday of my life to be sober.
It hasn?t been easy and life keeps throwing monkey wrenches my way. What was I thinking? Everything else was going to fix itself, just because I quit drinking? That is the work that I need to do yet. I guess I am back to the task of peeling the skins off onions. Alcohol was the first.
Some days when I am trying to unravel that Gordian knot that my life is, I forget to be grateful for what I have achieved and I have to work really hard not to let the negative voice in my head steal my spirit away again. It?s so dangerously easy to slip back into self-loathing, isolation and doubt. And that is the root of all evil. We all have to make a full-time job out of loving ourselves and demanding the respect, care and acceptance due to us. On a bad day I find solace in reading Eckhart Tolle?s advice. His teachings have helped me a lot. We all deserve a soft shoulder to fall on from time to time, but if it is not there we have to find a substitute to see us through.
I guess my advise to all you newbie?s is to be grateful for what you have and to love, respect, honor and cherish your beautiful soul that has so much to offer.
Love you all.
Lori
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