touched by it all
I have just walked into my Office, checked for messages from my guardian Angel, and by habit, just was having a quick browse through the posts of the past two days at mwo and then chanced upon this thread.
Been engrossed in it for the past half-hour and am having a lump in my throat right now. Very few times have I been moved to this extent when reading.
Thanks to each one you - UKSean, one2many, aidenspappa , prest4time- who have so courageously posted your past travails.
For me, these stories have given new food for thought. Till this moment, I have been looking at my past actions in life through the conscious choices that I had made since my teenage years. I have never dared to examine my childhood years with as much searching clarity as you all have done here. Maybe a lot of triggers for my current behaviour are anchored in unconscious /subconscious childhood happenings.
I have always made myself believe that I had a reasonably happy and carefree childhood. Loving parents and sibling. Huge extended family. Typical Indian(East) middleclass living. Good schooling. No major emotional traumas. Even with such a background, I never could fully understand why I did have an addictive streak in me. And a Mr.Hyde who keeps rearing his ugly head about one percent of the time. Are there some dark forgotten recesses of my memory which are unexplored (consciously?/as a defence mechanism?) and may provide pointers to my current behaviour?
Just thinking aloud. First time that I am posting on the fly, so to speak. That's how hard these experiences have hit me.
Wish you all the very best. Let's as usual, use this forum as a spring board for improving our inner lives.
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