Day 10 and depressed

[last call]

For two weeks have been reading and reading on anything I could get my hands on regarding Al and visiting this forum daily. I'm doing great, but for some reason today I just started crying out of the blue. Uncontollably! After trying to figure out why I felt like this I surmised that maybe I'm overdoing things a little too much. I thought that was just what I needed to overcome this, and it seems to be working. I feel like I have to go on to other things. Anybody understand? It's AA 24/7 and it's getting to me. One thing I know is I have to get out of this house. But it's so damn cold out and I don't drive. Maybe it's just the winter blues. First thing I'm going to do tonight is start reading a good mystery book and get away from all this AA literature. I hope this isn't a sign of a relapse coming being that I'm getting disinterested. Anybody ever feel like this? Thank for listening. :elk:

[dove]

Day 10 and depressed

I don't feel depressed but for sure when I'm not drinking everyday (last week made it 6 days) I cry at the drop of a hat. I don't know what it is but it is annoying. Sorry it's happening to you too.
Dove

[CS04]

Day 10 and depressed

I was the same way last spring when I did some AF time. I was depressed, and knew it, and hoped that removing AL would help. It didn't. Physically I felt better, but was still a wreck. However, I started taking antidepressants in June and they had not kicked in yet. I have had some (not a lot) of AF time since then, and I don't have the crying jags like I did back then. SO... you may want to see if there may be something else going on. Trust me, I never wanted to admit it, nor go on AD meds. Life is still hard, but better than it was. These issues are multi-facted. Keep us posted!

[kaponium]

Day 10 and depressed

Hey MaryAnn - for me in early sobriety my emotions are so very often a TOTAL rollercoaster. What I try to do is not analyse it all too much - put things into perspective, and remind myself that NOTHING is that bad thad a drink will help. The chemical withdrawls emotionally from alchohol (as it IS a drepressant) are very common. The down patches do surely pass. It is a matter of adjusting your sail - or in other words - just rolling with it. Hang in there - it IS worth it and so are you x x

[Prest4time]

Day 10 and depressed

Dont forget about those lovely hormones... sometimes I am smooth sailing and then I have a day that is just off the charts, makes no sense emotionally... just cry about everything. I can later look back and see that it was just a lot of hormones talking. Be gentle on yourself. :l

[Accountable for Me]

Day 10 and depressed

I had a good cry the first time I sobered up. It was around the second week. Out of no where - the tears came on huge. I bawled for a whole day!

Let your emotions go. You probably needed a good cry. We suppress our feelings with alcohol.

If you don't feel better in a few days, check in with your doctor. One of the huge underlying conditions for leading to alcohol abuse is depression.

[Accountable for Me]

Day 10 and depressed

Yes, hormones suck too!

[last call]

Day 10 and depressed

Thanks everyone

Thanks for all your replys. Glad to know I'm not the only one that ever felt this way. There's probably going to be alot more tears coming because I know anytime I had any kind of feeling at all I drank. I just couldn't handle emotions. I'm sure that's going to have to be addressed at some point. Gee! Can't wait. Thanks again. :elk:

[peacenik]

Day 10 and depressed

i got sobriety overload and threw my mwo book across the bedroom and laid there thinking how annoyed i was with having to read about how to get sober and having to come here to get support to remain sober, and thinking about when to take supplements so i wouldn't crave, and planning exercise for times when i would normally be drinking...it does overwhelm and i think you did a good thing for yourself by getting a good book about something else and chilling!!!

keep up the good work!

[Aussie Chick]

Day 10 and depressed

Hi Mary Ann, I've not had the tears, but then I've only done 11 days AF and am moderating now. But....I do see where you are coming from on the sobriety overload. Having a good book on the go will relax you and maybe get a good film to watch. You probably do need to plan a trip out of the house too or some socialising just to have a change of scene and something else to think about. Doesn't mean you have to drink just do something else.

Take care
AC x x x

[bestlifeldms]

Day 10 and depressed

Speaking from my experience: It seemed in the beginning, I traded one addiction for another. Most of us are very obsessive compulsive, which manifests itself in our desire to be "sober". I think that being "sober" is different than simply living a well balanced life that is ~ at ease ~ if you will. Maybe that is what they call a "dry drunk". I didn't want that for myself. I tried to learn to not put so much effort into being sober but more effort into living a quality life... I wanted to just live and be present in my every moment. It was very important for me to realize that in order for me to stop doing something (alcohol) I needed to DO something else. Except for me, my something else couldn't be just ONE THING (sobriety). That type of obcessive compulsive behavour is what helped to put me where I was (addiction) I needed to focus on the idividual aspects of my life - only in a broader sense. I needed to learn to allow myself to let my life happen, in a purposeful way, but with ease... Or as Ester Hicks / Abraham puts it, I needed to learn to let myself go with the flow of the river, rather than paddling upstream. Hope this makes sense.

[A Work in Progress]

Day 10 and depressed

Nice post, Best. Mary Ann, here's my two cents: sometimes when we quit drinking, we expect the world and our lives to be simply delightful from there on out... and sometimes, when we feel emotional lows, when life (still!) seems very difficult, we blame sobriety, and we say "This isn't working! I might as well be drinking!" I did that few times... to my deep regret. The one sure-fire way to make life worse is to start drinking again... People who don't drink also have problems, right? It's just that they don't have the major problems created by alcohol, on top of the usual problems that life brings to our doorstep...

[bestlifeldms]

Day 10 and depressed

AWIP, Absolutely! Challenges are still in our lives, for sure. The improvement is that we no longer amplify,compound and create new problems with alcohol.