OK read through the whole thread. Just had to throw that caution in right away about the scientologists, I have done some reading about the way they operate and would not want anyone getting involved with one of their programs!
I am feeling very rotten, got a dose of food poisoning yesterday after lunch, and had pretty much continuous diarrhea and vomiting for about 5 hours, and it just wasn't getting better as evening came on... I knew I couldn't sleep, having chills and cramps, so for the first time in my life I got myself an ambulance! I was really too weak to get there any other way, and I knew I really needed an IV. I was getting scared because I have read about people dying from food poisoning lately.... Anyhow they fixed me up very well, and today I am much better. Not back to normal, but much better. Not sure I will be able to travel tomorrow (plans are to fly back to Florida).
Ruby, I'm glad you have good pain meds! Hope you don't need them much longer...
Cy, you know how concerned I am about you. Wishy, you too.
My own take on all this, as you probably know, is that it is often a huge waste of time, and a delaying tactic, to try to delve into "why" we do the things we do... why we should get some kind of rush out of behaving horribly.... or whatever. First off, there are always multiple reasons, many of them impossible to discover or understand.... Secondly, knowing the "why" does not usually give us a way to stop doing the things we have compulsions to do... it's like knowing "why" we have cancer. The "why" has nothing to do with getting over the cancer...
The answer has more to do with asking ourselves what we want our lives to look like... and behave in ways that will get us to that place....
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