Army thread 19 feb 09

[startingover]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Keets you are a star girlie and Bestie is right when she says it gets better and better!

[keeta]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Best!
Thanks! I don't feel like an inspiration, BUT I sure do agree, that everything has slowly but surely been positively effected. Man, the depression I suffered. Such despair (sp?) There were truely days I just wished I hadn't woke up. How sad that AL was responsible for that and I kept on drinking!!??

starts...thank you! It does get better! I feel so much more hopeful, and positive about my life than just two short months ago. I honestly am surprised by the depth of change. Emotional...unfortunately, the physical change ended at about a 14 LB loss :H



I don't miss the hangovers.
I don't miss the fighting with my husband.
I don't miss the blackouts.
I don't miss not remembering going to bed.
I don't miss the guilt.
I don't miss the SHAME.
I don't miss feeling out of control of my own life,
I don't miss the CRAVINGS.
I don't miss that sinking feeling when opening the fridge and feeling panic because there are only 2 beer left and the liquor store is closed.

I enjoy the freedom from all those things.
I enjoy feeling like there is HOPE for me.

I enjoy being a non-drinker!

I couldn't have done it without the support of all the people here. I am so grateful for all of you and this site!:l:h:l

[inhiding]

Army thread 19 feb 09

I can't agree with you more Keeta..........

I couldn't have done it without the support of all the people here. I am so grateful for all of you and this site!

........I am nowhere near as far in my journey as you are but the empathy I feel from everyone here is starting to transfer to my home, work and life outside of MYO.....and yes, there is life outside MYO when I pull my nose out of my laptop.
A HUGE congrats on 60 day!

[cymru]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Congrats on 60 days Keeta. That is a huge step, and a goal that I am longing to reach. Well done you.

[keeta]

Army thread 19 feb 09

red...thank you!
I really do love this place.
You can beat this bastard AL....never give up!

Cy,
thanks for the congrats!
You WILL reach your goals Cy, I have no doubt!
I honestly never thought in a bazillion years I could go 2 months without booze.
I did.
There is nothing special or extraordinary about me, so I promise you if I can do it, Cy, you CAN too!

[startingover]

Army thread 19 feb 09

It was an incredible book Oney, I might read it again..

[kriger]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Great Job, Keeta! You are a STAR!!!! Every day is just a little bit better isn't it?

[startingover]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Hiya Kriggy!

[bloggy]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Hi Everybody

As some of you know I am back on the Sinclair method after dabbling with it in October. This time round after a shaky start when I was very nauseous it has been great- the Sinclair method requires that you drink every time a craving hits (after taking Naltrexone- no drinking without it) and it has been wonderful for me, while drinking I exp?rience very little pleasure, and by the time I reach beer number 3, I can't even finish it- hence I have been arriving home sober, going to bed sober and waking up hangover free.

I haven't mentioned the Sinclair method to my BF as he has heard so many broken promises over the years, and since opening the shop I have been a lot more controlled anyway, so I don't want him to begin worrying that by trying something new I will backslide, and trying to explain to somebody that the new method involves obligatory drinking is not an easy conversation to have.

This morning I had a bad headache (not a hangover- only 2 drinks yesterday) and took a migraine tablet which make me feel sick.

The BF just came in the shop and I told him I still don't feel great and would close the shop early, and hopefully be in bed by 9.30 pm.

"Why don't you just drink a litre or two of beer and then you can just crash out," was his helpful suggestion. I reminded him I never have any trouble sleeping, with or without alcohol.

Jeezuz.

Well at least he has a very short memory- he has obviously already forgotten how bad my alcohol problem has been and all the shit that my drinking has caused over the last 8 years he has been with me.

[startingover]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Sorry Red and Cy, missed you guys there.

[kriger]

Army thread 19 feb 09

I go in for a biopsy in a couple of hours....not expecting anything but positive news. I had two last year and the Dr just wants to confirm all is well. Send some positive vibes my way in about 2 hours.....thanks you guys!

[startingover]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Marby, I think our loved ones dont want to accept that we have a problem.

[startingover]

Army thread 19 feb 09

Kriggy, positve vibes are coming your way hun....x

[cymru]

Army thread 19 feb 09

I have not read dry, but will try to get it this week.

[bloggy]

Army thread 19 feb 09

startingover;552412 wrote: Marby, I think our loved ones dont want to accept that we have a problem.

Obviously not- he probably just thinks it was a blip- bloody great big blip if you ask me.