I do know this website offers a support which is better than AA to me anyway. We can talk and reach all corners of the world and just know we are not alone. So for me to abuse that is wrong. Yep I am spirited and downright rude at times. I need my spirit strong to fight this demon. It is winning me just lately. Am I scared? You bet. I am really scared, cos I thought I was getting better and then it grabbed from behind and dragged me down yet again. I suppose it showed me that never underestimate the power of alcohol, it is devious, deceitful and nasty and wants your soul. I want my soul not the demon drink to gain my soul. I want peace and tranquility and drink just tortures me.
So for all of you who have helped me and you have. For this website which is there for the good of all and free and without it where would we be. Please see it in your hearts to forgive me. I hereby promise to be good and try that little bit harder. I like you all. I love your words and I do respect you. I just go into things like a bull in a china shop, ultimately, it is me who pays the price.
I AM SORRY. I AM NOT BAD REALLY.....
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