Confession!!!

[Karl1981]

I have a problem.

I went to my 'srink' today and he said, this is the last 'dosage' of anti depressants he is going to give me, three months, and hes going to wiene me off.

Im fucked with out them. ill be bck to the depressed fucker i was before. im screwed.
what the hell can i do?

sure things has changed but im still the Fucked up indervidual i once was before. sure i dont open up to him. i dont open up to anyone.(my problem. i will deal with it) but here is the only place that knows the real me. im scared...

do you all really want to hear my 'old' post when i was off them. i dont think so.
do i pay him cash(bribe) to keep them on them.
or do i cut my rists and forget about the whole thing..

there the only thing keeping me 'sain'

fuck fuck fuck......

bring back the 'OLD' karl, let this journy once start again.......
FUCK!!!!

NOT A HAPPY CAMPER!!!!

[brittzak]

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Karl, there is more than one doctor...get a new one!!!!! Do not stand for it!!!!

[bestlifeldms]

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Karl,

In the US a general practitioner (regular doctor) can prescribe anti depressents. Can you go to your regular doctor? Depression is dpression ~ with such horrid symptoms. I hope you can get this straightened out. So many of us have tried to use alcohol to self medicate.

[Karl1981]

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im not the persson to ask for help, i got recomended to him via my GP, as he wiped his hand of me. put me in the too hard basket. i dont know where to look. i pay throught the ass for this guy. im worried and scared.

[greeneyes]

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Karl, if you don't open up tio him, how can he properly treat/help you? He can't responsibly prescribe meds for something of which he is not aware. I can't think of any other suggestion except for you to try develop a rapport with him or another doctor (and don't read "doctor hopping" into that ) so that you are comfortable sharing your real issues. You might need stitches instead of bandaids but at the end of the day you'd probably be better off. Just try, OK?

[Karl1981]

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I refuse to go to the doctor for anything. its bad. i hate doctors dentists and cops. i have to be willinging pushed by family to see them. and now i dont want to ask for help again if you know what i mean.

[Karl1981]

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i went to him today right. we tqalked about my new company. for ages, we talked about the real issue for about 2 min. soph, drinking. and the fucked up indervidlau ive become. but he is good and has a lot of letters after his name. lol

[Karl1981]

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I guess I dont want to talk about my deep down 'problems' issue. id prefer to deal with them myself. no one elses problem. only mine. no one else needs to know. get my drift...

[Karl1981]

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bed time ill check toomorrow afternoon... wish me luck...

[Karl1981]

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AHH wally. you funny bugger. hehehe

I can try i guess i dont have to go back untill 2 months from now.
i just dont want to seem as a 'junky' ect. i bullshit my way out of anything. and ive put a front up being 'normal' and im over it. just for the fact i dont want to tell them all. all i told him was that ive been locked up one since last time for drinking. i cant and will not open up. its not in my nature. i guess thats just me but, i can not.. i hope you all understand. its my issue, no one else needs to know..

[aprilmoon]

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Karl,

I don't know what kind of meds you are on. I am on Paxil. I tried to wean myself off of them years ago. The only way I can describe it is that I got the wha wha's in my head. I couldn't deal with that and the fact that I was ugly to everyone I came into contact with. I'm still on Paxil. My OBGYN (lady doctor) gave me the precription and has always refilled it every year without hesitation. I wish I could have handled life years ago without them, but I couldn't. So I guess I will be on them forever.

Don't get discouraged about this yet. If he has given you 3 months of prescriptions, you have 3 months to get him to change his mind or get another doctor. I hear you when you say you don't want to have to start over with a new doctor, but your doctor isn't gonna help you anymore. (Or that's the way it seems to me) It sounds like he has thrown you into a total panic about this. He should be there to help not harm you. Don't do anything drastic. You have meds now and have time to come up with a solution to get more.

I hope that you are not abusing the med....taking more than you need and he wants to cut you down. Sorry for that comment, but just wanted to get it out there.

Karl, in the meantime we (I) am here for you. PM me....let me know if you want to chat. I'm usually on early in the AM and late in the PM (US time) You don't have to discuss your problems with anyone on this board. Just know that if there is a way I can help, I'm here for you. I'm new to this AF life and I know that if my doctor was going to "wean" me off my Paxil, I would be in a panic. I wish you the best!!!

[Karl1981]

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hey thanks. no im taking the one tablet aday. no more.. im on a tablet call avenza, morphine based..
ive even put on 13 odd kilos, the the weight i want to be. 79klgs. my work and company are going well since on them. it makes me who i am. and helps bring out the best in 'Karl'

my fingers are crossed

[aprilmoon]

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Karl1981;556350 wrote: hey thanks. no im taking the one tablet aday. no more.. im on a tablet call avnenza, morphine based..
my fingers are crossed

Good for you. Things are gonna work out, I just know it.

[irish eyes]

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Hi Karl
I have difficulty in understanding why u pay good money to this psychiatrist and cover up how you really feel. He is obviously under the impression that u are doing ok, what would be wrong with saying ' i have difficulty in telling people how I really feel I like to put a mask on all of the time but this is how it actually is for me.......... and it terrifies me giving up the tablets'. He will listen to you and hear you and futhermore respect u for being upfront and honest about your feelings. Do urself a favour and ask this man for help he will understand.
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