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[Theme2be]

I have this struggle.

Or does this struggle have me?

It is a challenge. That is because I know I have value.
Until I wake up then Who I am is distorted.

I communicate.
I need you.

My favorie color is perfect.

I pray I dont wake up alone.

[DeeBee]

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Theme, I was thinking of you just yesterday and wondering how you are!!
It's great to see you posting again.
Yes, it is a challenge but it can be done.
How can we help?

[polaryzed]

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Hi T2B

Gosh you sound so down. I hope you are ok. Please thread back so Dbee and others can make you feel better.

You are right YOU do have enormous value!

[Theme2be]

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I am here every day and in spirit every moment.

That matters that you were thinking of me Dee~
I have experienced great abandonment because of this condition.
I am skimming the surface of life, I appear alive, but, am asleep.

I say with complete assurance that I Love You, each one of you. Your are incredible souls and I value every word expressed on this site.

Dear Ones
you are a one and only you
valuable escorts to the open minded ideas
of hope
together
we join with a presence so original
companions are we
company during the agony

Afflicted with this
nevertheless
we join in union of spirit
scattered
yet we gather

We are a gathering
of clarity
I sense a clearing on the horizon
It is adorned with assurance and acceptance.
Home is our profile

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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You don't sound asleep to me, Theme. Are you okay? Are you feeling abandoned now?

[Theme2be]

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That is a beautiful thing to say, Becomming~

I feel isolated beyond mention.

I feel sad, yet, reassured always because of this site.

I don't feel myself, nor do I look myself.
I don't want to be a negative draining presence.

I live for the moment when my participation is more relative

[Cinders]

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My favorie color is perfect.

Mine, too, TheMe2Be.

Mine, too.

Love,
Cindi

[Seacailin]

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Nice to see you Theme.
You are missed when you are not here. I do hope your spirits lift.

[dexterhead]

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:l:lHello TheMe/ Karen! have missed you here.

[Still_Fighting]

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Theme2be;562433 wrote: I live for the moment when my participation is more relative

I'm sure your participation is always relative.

You write beautifully.

[cacky]

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Theme, We have never met. Im new to the site. You seem very deep and inspiring. I hope i can read posts from you down the road as well when you are up and happy. Im sure it will be a really nice treat. Keep your chin up.

Cacky

[Theme2be]

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Thank you so for your kindness in words as your intent is comforting.

I hesitated to post, but, need to be viable from this crap.
The more I reach out from this misery , I hope, it looses its grip.
Someday. I called AA once and the gentleman on the phone said he went to AA in 1963 and he got sober in 1970. I don't use that as an excuse to swallow this poison, but, I find a reprieve in those words that one not loose hope.

You are wonderful.

"Perfect Colors" for Cinders~

Its an arrangement
that deters ones perspective to find comfort
original
unique and crystal clear
We are pretty!
We are simply perfect
Not to simplify our genius
because we are universal
original in our uniqueness , flawless when viewed through the spectrum of compassion.
It is ushered in with the breeze that comforts
Be comforted as you comfort
Life uplifts because the becon of your soul guides the desparate beyond the despair to a place that perfects all the colors to their truest state~

[DeeBee]

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Theme2be;562266 wrote:
Dear Ones
you are a one and only you
valuable escorts to the open minded ideas
of hope
together
we join with a presence so original
companions are we
company during the agony

Afflicted with this
nevertheless
we join in union of spirit
scattered
yet we gather

We are a gathering
of clarity
I sense a clearing on the horizon
It is adorned with assurance and acceptance.
Home is our profile

That is beautiful!!

[polaryzed]

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Theme

Theme2Be - You have an Inner Beauty beyond imagination that I for one am very grateful you can share with us.

You are very artistic one can tell by your written words. They are truly inspiring in many ways.

You make us open up our very souls to reach inward and search for more depth and clarification to the true purpose for which we are each here on this our wonderous plant.
:l

[Theme2be]

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Thank you so very much.

I feel shallow, does this make sense to anyone? It is odd how "it"devalues without even an open invitation to monopolize my humanness. It is not a civilized state for me, I become like an animal; my essence is deformed and I am ditched at the end of the spell with no love to show for.
I began on this site a time ago and my story is my story. I hope no guilt , or more shame. I have plenty. I contemplated suicide and that is frigtening. I am gentle spirited when in my true nature.

I am returning to The AA support group, because I have to get out from the shadows, alone. I spent time with an intuitive today and she offered solid ideas and hope. Oddly enough she "use" to drink in this manner. I am contemplating an Intensive Outpatient Program if they will work out a payment plan with me. I pissed off work this week, with another "cover" excuse. I don't like the deceit, it brings more weight on my soul.

I am eager for rest.
Thank you for your patience, some of you from a way back. It means so much to my life.
I care about you,deeply.