Half Way Through My First Day AF

[down2earth]

I wrote a post in on the boards discussing meds, I finally admitted the AL problem to my doc. I told her my withdrawl was actually painful, and I was scared shitless. (I didn't say shitless:H) She prescribed me Ativan. Today is my first day, and I still am having some shakiness, cold sweats and anxiety, and I am worried about what I will do when I get home from work.

I am also worried about being up with anxiety attacks all night.:upset:

I need to do this and I WANT to do it. I have a fear this addiction is stronger than me! It's been "ok," for so long, and become such a part of my life. It's my daily activity, sleep aid, entertainment, appetite stimulant....I could go on, but you all know what I am going through.

I think once the anxiety stops, and I start sleeping again I will see things more clearly. (Actually sleeping, instead of passing out!)

[Marshy]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

Good for you for taking action and getting help!
Do you have a plan for what to do when you get home - something to DISTRACT you from thinking about your usual routine?

[cacky]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

Down2earth, I find this site to be an awesome distraction. I go on the chats at night and also participate in the posts. There is nothing like talking to a bunch of drunks to keep your mind where it needs to be.

Keep centered. Keep talking and good luck. We are here for you

[down2earth]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

Thanks to you both. I am going to take my dog for a walk, and then our building is hosting what they call "Yappy Hour," they get all the dogs in the same room, feed em treats, let them go wild! So That will be a distraction for a little while.

I love this site, but sadly I don't always have internet at home. Sometimes, I need it so bad, especially when I can't sleep. Before, if I couldn't sleep, I'd get up take a shot, sometimes 2 of something...crawl back into bed and pass right back out. I have slept through my alarm many times because of that.

[down2earth]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

I have a horrible way of talking myself out of being AF in the evening. All day long, I will promise tonight is the night!! I get it all out of my apartment and have so much determination and hope. Then I get home, after walking the pup and feeding him dinner, I sist on the couch and realize how boring my evenings are without AL. Then I'll go out intending to find something to do, somehow I always end up with a bottle.

[Guest]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

are you having a bottle now Down?

[Cinders]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

Down,

A huge trick is to learn to have fun without alcohol. Literally billions of people in the world do it. We can, too.

Cindi

[down2earth]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

No bottles now.

I do need to learn to have fun without booze.

I am so jealous of those people that can have a glass of wine with dinner, then stop.

I have a glass of wine before dinner, with dinner, after dinner and through the rest of my evening until I pass out!

[Guest]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

well done on getting through tonight.
We are conditioned by the media and the like to feel we can only have fun with drink, but in reality , how much fun is it??? I mean , lets face it, having a drinking prob is the lonliest thing in the world and constantly wrestling with our heads , will I tonight, wont I tonight, is the most boring thing in the world!! We are drowning our creativity and really need to readdress our thinking in order to see through the 'illusion' that drink= fun!

[lilmea]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

Down, you can get through this. Take one hour at a time if you have to. Drink lots of water, juices. Try to eat alittle. Take a hot bath. Try to sleep as much as you can. You can do this. The withdrawals are only for alittle while. Not forever.

[down2earth]

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The night is the hardest beacause I lay in bed and shake, and sweat. Doom and lonliness fill my head, and I just want to cry!

I feel like it's just easier to be a "functioning ALic." Eventhough there is no such thing. I mean, yeah I come to work everyday on time. But went I can't even hold a piece of paper still from all my shaking... It's embarassing! When I have auch a bad headache that noise and light HURT.

That's not how I want to live!

[Pan]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

Down2earth, shaking a sweating when trying to sleep is normal when you stop drinking. It will stop in a week probably. It's horrible to put up with, but just remember that if you start drinking again, you will have to go through the shaking and sweating all over again next time you stop.

[down2earth]

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I made it...sort of.

Well, last night was pretty horrible. I got home from work and took a few sips of my fiance's beer. Then we out out to dinner and the whole way there I was thinking of what to get beside AL. I ended up with a beer. After that I asked my fiance to leave a few of his beers in my fridge. BUT...I did not drink them. I feel good about that.

The sweating is what is bothering me the most now that I am taking Ativan. The shaking has calmed down tremendously.

I decided to take today off of work, and take care of myself as if I have the flu. (Because with all the sweating, it sure feels like I do.

Any advice about what I can start eating? Everything sounds gross, but haven't eaten since breakfast yesterday. (Yes, we went out to dinner last night, I got soup, and didn't even touch it.)

[BecomingMeAtLast]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

downy,

Can you eat some soup now? Are you drinking water? You really need water. How about some toast with tea?

Be

[down2earth]

Half Way Through My First Day AF

I made it! I have 1 day offically AF under my belt. It feels good.

I still has a really hard time sleeping. The sweating is AWFUL. I am cold but sweat at the same time!