I just popped in to see how things are going. I don't get here often but it's always nice to catch up. I'm still on the Antabuse and it's been great. I haven't had a drink for ten weeks now and things are falling into place nicely. I have an appointment with my alcohol counsellor next week and I'm thinking of maybe coming off the meds and trying it solo. They have been a great help and I find that I barely think about drinking or not drinking. Already, sober seems to be the way I am. I never pass the booze shop and wish I had some, which would have been inconceivable not too long ago. My body is delighted that I'm not poisoning it any more. I look after it with some excercise and it's lost most of the aches and pains that I used to have and I can almost grate cheese on my stomach.
Another change I've made is to throw out my TV. I found myself wanting to do things in the evenings and ended up just staring at the boob tube and wasting my nights, so I literally threw it in the bin last week. It wouldn't fit so I had some fun stripping it down into more managable portions. I have a digital radio and lots of books to keep me going and I want to see a movie then I'll go and see it.
Generally I'm doing good, but as always there are some problem areas that I'm trying to improve but that's what life's all about. I have perceived myself as a weak person. Someone with no say about anything including what happens to me. A victim of life. Things aren't always cosy and neat and it's sometimes hard to lift my head up and look the world in the eye. In the old days, I might have just curled up in a bottle and took whatever was coming and apologised for being in the way. I don't want to do that any more. I am taking responsibility for myself and trying to lead my life with some purpose and direction, not just drifting along in a daze and seeing where I end up.
I hope I haven't bored anyone to death. That went on a bit longer than I meant it to.
Happy Monday!!
Another change I've made is to throw out my TV. I found myself wanting to do things in the evenings and ended up just staring at the boob tube and wasting my nights, so I literally threw it in the bin last week. It wouldn't fit so I had some fun stripping it down into more managable portions. I have a digital radio and lots of books to keep me going and I want to see a movie then I'll go and see it.
Generally I'm doing good, but as always there are some problem areas that I'm trying to improve but that's what life's all about. I have perceived myself as a weak person. Someone with no say about anything including what happens to me. A victim of life. Things aren't always cosy and neat and it's sometimes hard to lift my head up and look the world in the eye. In the old days, I might have just curled up in a bottle and took whatever was coming and apologised for being in the way. I don't want to do that any more. I am taking responsibility for myself and trying to lead my life with some purpose and direction, not just drifting along in a daze and seeing where I end up.
I hope I haven't bored anyone to death. That went on a bit longer than I meant it to.
Happy Monday!!
Glad your doing well Popeye. Good hearing from you.........Don't be a stranger, IAD
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