i'm STiLL sober!!!! 15 days now, maybe more. Loving life again!!!
Antabuse gave me the kick start i needed and now i'm well on my way, not craving , nothing! i'm happy again! i feel like a good mum again!!! and a good wife. i missed that feeling sooo much, i felt like such a failure, i used to look at my little girl and i knew that even tho she is to young to talk (1 1/2 years old) i know that when she saw me buy, open or drink the wine she used to become sad in a way, as if she knew what was going to happen to me and the fights that would happen between me and hubby. Just typing this is bringing me to tears.
i just missed so much. How could i do that to myself? even when i knew what i was doing... how could i continue to do it?
ANYWAY, i'm not going to look back as i can't change what i've done, i look at it as a hard lesson learnt.
i'm looking into the future and i'll never go back!!!!!!
Antabuse gave me the kick start i needed and now i'm well on my way, not craving , nothing! i'm happy again! i feel like a good mum again!!! and a good wife. i missed that feeling sooo much, i felt like such a failure, i used to look at my little girl and i knew that even tho she is to young to talk (1 1/2 years old) i know that when she saw me buy, open or drink the wine she used to become sad in a way, as if she knew what was going to happen to me and the fights that would happen between me and hubby. Just typing this is bringing me to tears.
i just missed so much. How could i do that to myself? even when i knew what i was doing... how could i continue to do it?
ANYWAY, i'm not going to look back as i can't change what i've done, i look at it as a hard lesson learnt.
i'm looking into the future and i'll never go back!!!!!!
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