After I got to 30 days, which I thought would be when I would allow myself a drink I realised that it just wasn't that important, so I just kept on going day after day and now here I am at day 60. And Day 51 of no smokes.
And a new name as well - panicked has become Pan -icked. Pan minus the icked because I am simply not panicked anymore.
I am now going to allow myself a drink if I feel like one. I am at the stage where I really don't care whether I have a drink or not, so I'm going to give it a go should the occasion arise. That occasion may be this weekend when I go to visit some friends who own a bar.
If I discover I simply can not drink without going overboard, then I will be back to AF straight away. I have faith in myself but it is still in unchartered waters.
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