Hello to all of you,my wonderful MWO friends.
Since I have been AF, my life has pretty much gone on as usual. It is just a little more sane, now that it is not filled with the strife I brought into it, by drinking. And there was a lot.
I won't go into details. That isn't why I am writing this.
Last week I got in contact with a friend of mine who two years ago walked out of my life
because I was drinking so much. Because my drinking and behaviour was so out of control
she could no longer watch it.
She was supposed to be my maid of honor. She walked out of my life less than three months before my wedding.:upset:
You would think that was a wake up call. It wasn't. I didn't join this web site for another 7 or 8 months. It took almost a year after joining for me to get completely AF.
When I told this long lost friend I had quit drinking, she cried.
She thought I was lost forever.
I am grateful for the reminder of how far I have come.
That although things seem pretty much the same....
they are profoundly different.
I am very grateful for the reminder of what I WAS. Of how utterly lost, hopeless and completely out of control I was.
Of how many times I wished I was dead, or how many times I prayed to just not wake up in the morning. Drunken fights with my husband, passing out sitting on the couch...never being awake to put my kids to bed....the depression, and despair.
I am grateful I am no longer lost.
I am grateful that I no longer drink.
I am so grateful to be sober.
Thank you all...this place has been a huge part of my sobriety.
For my sobriety, and for all of you....I am deeply grateful
xoxo
K
Since I have been AF, my life has pretty much gone on as usual. It is just a little more sane, now that it is not filled with the strife I brought into it, by drinking. And there was a lot.
I won't go into details. That isn't why I am writing this.
Last week I got in contact with a friend of mine who two years ago walked out of my life
because I was drinking so much. Because my drinking and behaviour was so out of control
she could no longer watch it.
She was supposed to be my maid of honor. She walked out of my life less than three months before my wedding.:upset:
You would think that was a wake up call. It wasn't. I didn't join this web site for another 7 or 8 months. It took almost a year after joining for me to get completely AF.
When I told this long lost friend I had quit drinking, she cried.
She thought I was lost forever.
I am grateful for the reminder of how far I have come.
That although things seem pretty much the same....
they are profoundly different.
I am very grateful for the reminder of what I WAS. Of how utterly lost, hopeless and completely out of control I was.
Of how many times I wished I was dead, or how many times I prayed to just not wake up in the morning. Drunken fights with my husband, passing out sitting on the couch...never being awake to put my kids to bed....the depression, and despair.
I am grateful I am no longer lost.
I am grateful that I no longer drink.
I am so grateful to be sober.
Thank you all...this place has been a huge part of my sobriety.
For my sobriety, and for all of you....I am deeply grateful
xoxo
K
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