when i was drinking,i was absolutely selfish,i thought of myself first,last,and always.The universe revolved around me at the center.When i woke up in the morning with a hangover,my only thought was how terrible i felt and what could i do to make myself better and the only thing i could thing of was more drink,to quit was impossible,i coundent see beyond myself and my own need for more drink,i thought i had it good,i repeat thought,lovely girlfriend,job,friends,family,i lived in denial, then 104 days ago i went on another bender but this time i went lower than my usual low,that was friday by monday i had lost everything,i am not going into details its to embarssing.On that Tue i vowed i would not drink ever again,since then i go once a week to 1 2 1 councillors,group forum & i also came here,i am now much more clear headed,less angry,anxious, or feeling resentment and i have a much more feelgood factor about me that i never new i had,i look for all the positive things in life and there are many,i cycle & swim 6 days a week &eat healthy I was nearly 19st in feb,i am now st16.6 ibs,and learning the magic tricks of gratitude & acceptance and also slowly slowly repairing the damage done to my inner circle of friends & family,I wont forget the past but i wont live in it,forgetting is not forgiven,so i am still feeling good and going for my goals with both hands & now i no i will get there, so thanks to every body here for there help, i enjoy being part of this community it helps me a lot,:thanks:again
awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, 
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