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[Doggygirl]

Non-Addicts

Phil, it sounds like you are covering some very important ground in your recovery. I'm sure a lot of this work is emotionally exhausting! I hope it's rewarding for you too. I too am working to find myself as a grown up.

Rock on!

DG

[LVT25]

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Very nice oust hippie I'm happy for you. Thanks for sharing!

[Lavande]

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Hi Cindi,

I used to handle everything life threw at me without a drink - but it all changed in an instant! I guess you would call it a huge case of sudden depression, hopelessness, anxiety, etc. brought on by being handed a huge disappoint by my husband. In a flash, all of my hopes & dreams were flushed down the toilet, I was devastated. Until then, I was OK, hanging on by a thread but still had hope. Boy, once the hope is gone everything goes to hell. I picked up the wine bottle for comfort, to numb the emotional pain. I knew it was wrong, but, at the time I really didn't give a damn. Next thing I knew it was 10 years later and still numbing myself.

I grew entirely disgusted with myself back at Christmas. In January I started doing some serious reading and working on behavior modification programs. I was slowly decreasing my wine intake at the time when I found MWO in February. It took until the middle of March but I finally quit. I really needed to convince myself that I could do it. I told my husband of 35 years to go away for a while, let me heal in peace. He did go for 8 weeks and it was a blessing. Needless to say things are very different now but not in a bad way. I'm thrilled to be sober for the first time in 10 years and he finally understands what he did to allow things to get to this point. That's a big deal for me.

I am determined to never let another crisis put me back in the bottle again. I will do whatever it takes to remain calm & rational and make better decisions on how to handle amy problems.