So yesterday my Brother in law (though he doesn't like when I call him that b/c he divorced my sister 16 yrs ago and likes me) stopped by. He was in town for who knows what. Big drinker. Asked if I had any beer. I said there is some but it is my husbands and he will think I drank it. But then I said ahh don't worry I will replace it. So we had a couple of beers (I had 2 he had 3) and I went out to get more also bought some wine. (dummy) I hid the wine in my room but the beer didn't fit so I THINK I put it in the basement. Later I drank quite a bit of wine and it was his night for the kids. I am sure he noticed my drinking and I passed out to boot. Today I cannot find the rest of the beer to save my life. So he either found it or will later. Man I should have just told my BIL i had none!
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Oh and to boot I insulted my friends religious beliefs!One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your 3 closest friends...If they seem OK then you are the one. -
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AND.... just got a msg from my therapist that I missed todays appt! F!One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your 3 closest friends...If they seem OK then you are the one.Comment
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Sounds like a very rough start to the day. I'm sorry. But today is a new day. Try to remain honest with yourself and those around you. Hidding helps nothing, trust me, it only feeds the addictive behavior. Its embarassing and tough to be honest about addictive behavior but trust me your loved ones love you regardless of your mistakes. Own the behavior, except it for what it was, learn from it and move forward. Today is a brighter day!Comment
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Hey twins. Let's be honest here. We can all be nicey nice about it, and say it's o.k, jump back on board etc, but I think it's time to put a plan into action? Are you getting any help with your drinking? Mwo will always be here to help. God knows it has helped me, but there came a time where I was told that mwo wasn't enough and I needed help outside of a website. Do you feel that maybe it is time to start looking into some other way of help aswell as all the kind people here at mwo?
My own experience was that I did. I just kept relapsing over and over. I now have mwo and people in my own city who I see face to face. This was a big change that helped me start my journey to sobriety.
Whatever you decide twins, I wish you all the best in your battle.
Cy.To Infinity And Beyond!!Comment
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Thanks Cy and Nearly. On an up note I found the rest of the beer. (and going to put it in the bin!) Nearly, unfortunately I have to hide any drinking from the husband right now long story, but we are in the process of divorce. Cy yes I am getting more help. I could never do it on my own w/just the site. Always knew that. I am getting counseling (AL counseling aside from therapy I missed today) and staring Naltrexone soon. I did really well here on Topamax but my body didn't. I can't wait to start living that way again.One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your 3 closest friends...If they seem OK then you are the one.Comment
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OUCH!! You evening sounds just like something I used to get up to. It's a horrid feeling to face the next day but what really helped me, especially in the beginning was to journal my feelings and go back to them if I ever had the urge to do it again.
Good luck with the Nal, TwinsMum, keep us posted how it goes."The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"Comment
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I am never in a bad mood am I . . .
Please know I am not trying to be judgemental here Tmommy but . . . .
"I have to hide any drinking from the husband right now long story, but we are in the process of divorce".
I agree with Cy and Nearly "Hiding Helps Nothing", I was getting the impression that you wanted to have custody of your 2 toddlers but woe DO YOU?
Not trying to be harsh just realistic.
God Bless . . .Comment
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I know you are not and I understand how it all sounds. Believe me I know I have a problem that is why I am here. Yes I want my kids that is also why I am here. The thing is I dunno actually I guess I am just used to hiding it b/c he has sort of run my life for so long, anything that is not his way... I can't explain it but I also know that even though it does not help, I am NOT the only person here who hides drinking from someone. I got me meds today and am so very excited. I want to be better for my kids and me. Anyway, hopefully no more hiding b/c this will be the beginning of my new (or old
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Polar how bad was your drinking? what is your situation? I don't think you were trying to be judgemental nor do I think Cy is BUT... It seems that when someone on this site is not getting it right, that people actually do start to give up being supportive. (some people) Please do not take that in a bad way I took none of the comments on this thread badly, it is just that unless you are just starting out sometimes there is a lack of encouragement. Which I think everyone needs esp. if you keep relapsing.One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your 3 closest friends...If they seem OK then you are the one.Comment
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im with you on that twinsmommy,i too keep relapsing.although i realise it must be downheartening for everyone who has offered their support and we fall off the wagon,time and time again.I have been lurking but haven't posted lately as im too dissapointed with myself and couldn't handle a negative post right now.Maybe it isn't as negative as i perceive due to alcohol and self hatred after a drinking spree...There's nothing anyone can say to me that i don't already know.I'm an alcoholic.I cannot drink sensibly so therefore should not drink at all.Just wish i could practice what i preach!
hugs"Just when i was getting used to yesterday,along came today"
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I don't think anyone is being judgemental, it is just frustrating for them when we can't seeem to get it together.
Twins, I am glad your meds have arrived, I have been on naltrexone for 4 months now with good success, PM if there is anything I can help with.Comment
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In answer to your questions TMommy. . . well lets see if I can be concise . . .
Abuse: I just thought all families had that. So my dad was Not to blame.
(I am an Army Brat simply put means a child of a veteran).
Control: I just thought all families had that. And married an insecure and controlling man who drank too much and swore he would take my children away if I didn't follow his every whim. Then one day I told him I was expecting another baby and well lets just say that was Not on his agenda. After another night drinking he came home and decided to pick a fight and I made the mistake of arguing my point and he hit me in the stomach. The twins were born 2 months premature (though the incident happened when I was 3m. preg.). He had warned me he did not want another child, and I was taking the pill ~ I would not change having my children for anything in the world.
I have been verbally and physically abused but the one thing in my life that terrified me the most was that he or anyone could take my children. Then a wonderful person came into my life and told me that 'I Had Options'.
Drinking: I did Not start drinking other then sociably until my children were all in there teens. And I didn't start drinking daily until the children were grown. Amazingly, we both Stopped Drinking after our grown son was in a car accident and almost died. Unfortunately, I started again 3 or 4 months later, ever so slowly and then BAM.
Hiding: A couple of short years later I found myself hiding the fact I drank. If I knew company was coming over I would have a drink to break the ice, 'even in the morning'. Ridiculous in retrospect.
Reality: Over the past 3 years or so he has commented off and on that I need to quit or at least cut back. So I went on-line and There by The Grace of God I found this forum. Yep, still with the same man but that is another whole story . . .
And since then I have actually been able to modify what I drink. By way of a Journal, a Tracker, Reading, Staying close to the wonderful people in the MWO forum and my hobbies. And for the 1st time ever this past weekend I enjoyed the company of my 2 little grandchildren (by my choice). My daughter has been asking me for a few years now to take her children for a weekend . . . I didn't feel comfortable til NOW!
Twinsmommy, this is the 1st time I have shared this information and I sincerely hope it helps you. :upset: because you truly do sound like a caring and compassionate person.
PS ~ please stay close to these amazing people, they can help you in so many ways. :lComment
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Thank you for sharing with us Polaryzed, that took guts and a lot of heart!!"The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"Comment
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Polar for the moment I have to go but I want to thank you for sharing and hope I did not come across badly. Will post laterOne out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your 3 closest friends...If they seem OK then you are the one.Comment
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