The Next day thread Monday 11th May

[ronnie]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

pan you have to you made a promise

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

I know and I will uphold that promise. I don't go back on my word. I made the promise because I know I have to. Doesn't mean I'm ready tho and that is a recipe for disaster in my eyes. Just keep on kicking me.

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Mr G and anyone else that doesn't know what's going on, I had a meltdown today and was helped by my many friends. I made a promise that I would start Day 1 again, tomorrow.

[ronnie]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

If we done things when only we are ready to then nothing would ever get done, there that another kick for you love ronnie

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

I really don't think I can talk to my husband at the moment. It will either calm me or further drive me downwards. What do you reckon I should do? Ignore the phone call - if it comes - or just deal with it?

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Well Ronnie, I think you just answered my question. We cross posted.

[ronnie]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

If it was me I would ignore the call, cause you have got to think about yourself and if by talking to hubby sets you back again then its not worth it

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Okay. That was my thinking too. But at the same time, he will be antagonised if he calls and I don't answer. Oh, the joys of marriage going wrong...

[ronnie]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

cant you just email him?

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

In other news, I have just made my first step back into normality. I am a mystery shopper and I just accepted two jobs. That is a big step because one needs to be very observant. Can't do that if I'm drinking. Actually, can't do anything except type if I'm drinking.

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Yeah, Ronnie, I can email him, but that's not going to solve anything. We need to actually talk. You know how email messages go wrong?

[ronnie]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Well done Pan, guess what I am a mystery shopper but I have'nt done any jobs yet, by the time I get onto web site all the jobs are gone unless I want to get up at about 4.00 in the morning to be the first to nab them!!

[ronnie]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Pan what I meant was could you email him and ask him to phone tomorrow instead of today and explain

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

And anyway, lets be mature about this. An email to your husband? Yeah, have done it, but not a good way of communicating at all, at all.

[Pan]

The Next day thread Monday 11th May

Ronnie, yes, I could do that, but I have already sent a long email to him which he ignored. It was a whole pouring out of my heart. I think it's up to him now. I'm just not ready.